命运的旋律

makin lama makin intense

2012-01-16T01:13:00.001+08:00

Pun.... I takut ....
Is even insecure this time... I guess ?
Tapi gosh ! Itu feeling makin lama makin intense ....
@@

***

设计 ? 有学啦, 乱扯是绝对行的 !

2011-12-29T01:33:00.000+08:00

好久没更新了...
看见上一次更新都半个月, 我想再简单也得写些什么吧.
毕竟这部落格, 绝对不能遗弃. 它记载了我许多年的回忆, 怎能让它现在就停止了呢.
其实这部落格有点像自己的日记了, 不一样的是有些事情我看了我会明白, 你们就未必那么有体会哦. 有暗号嘛, 哈哈.

功课越来越紧逼了.... 但我嘛.. 和一班朋友还是经常嬉乐.
半夜打篮球啊, 打一半天的 dota 啊, 喝茶不懂喝到几点啊, 到处狂啊.... 等等的.
我们都说嘛 "毕业就没机会了 !"
这我很赞同 ! 功课固然重要啦.... 但是你出去公干后你还会记得功课吗 ? 就像你还记得 spm 这回事吗？
毕业后一定会很想念现在的生活啊~

所以做功课就很纠结啊.... 纠结啊, 煎熬.... 最近不知道为什么非常爱用这两个形容词, 特别是纠结, 哈哈.
是啊, 快毕业了.... 我想我许多的朋友都已经开始有点感叹还是什么了吧...
半年... 可以很快啊.
想一想 alpha 时的曾经, 都还历历在目的.
想一想 beta 时的坚持, 都还记得嘛.
一眨眼的, delta 2nd sem 了 !!

还记得自己说, 大学时期要找到自己的另一半 ! ( 一踏进大学我就这样说了, 哈哈.)
但是看来嘛.... 我还是逃不过失败这宿命啊 ! 哈哈.
剩下半年, 还有现在自己那就是要慢慢来的心态..... 总结来说, 就是不可能咯.
老豆, 我懂你很失望啦 ! 你就不要再问我找到靠岸了没啦 ~
最主要你儿子是正常的, 不是基的就好了啦~ ( 这什么狗屁 ? )

大学毕业将近, 如果你问我学到什么最多 ?
设计 ? 有学啦, 乱扯是绝对行的 !
其实.... 是 dota 嘛 ( 因为以前一点都不会, 现在却懂得有点厉害了.) ! 就不能让我碰到一个非常有意思, 很有深度的游戏.... 我会着迷的.
好宅 !?!? 我不算纯宅男啦 ! 有少少宅倒是真的. dota 这东西能研究的东西真心比课本多啊 !
我就爱研究这研究那的..... 所以, 中毒啦. 纯粹个人喜好吧.... 我喜欢的东西超多, 这就其中一个吧.

我也想自己的大学生活都在恋爱啦 ~ 哈哈. 但就失败了.
读书 ? 拜托 !! 从小抗拒好不好 ?
运动 ? 有啊, 都不少... 只是和电动相比... 确实少了点.
交际 ? 也不差吧, 只是没什么和许多不一样的人逛而已啊. 比较喜欢和自己相熟的出去逛啦, 没压力啊. 不用担心说错话什么的.

哇... 说随便更新... 我又写了一大堆的了.
好啦, 应该继续公干了 !

最后送上自己最近都在做的事情

半夜尬球 !!!

***

也祝你生日快乐 =]
希望你有个比较不一样的生日.
( 自己对号入座吧~ )

***

想下下就好啦

2011-12-13T04:22:00.002+08:00

不知道为什么... 今天坐在床上.
想起了不少事情.... 听了林俊杰的 "学不会" 吧.
一些事情实在不去想.... 也都不会说, 不经意就想起了... 毕竟要去想, 也不少吧...
但是一想就好似什么都涌出来了....

所以嘛... 想下下就好啦.

***

最近也非常夜睡.... 真糟糕... 像现在, 就是半夜 4 点多了....

***

写来干嘛

2011-12-09T02:47:00.001+08:00

pun sudah lama takdak tulis apa-apa.
写些什么呢 ?
之前写部落格都是因感情而发的....
最近嘛.... 看见我没什么更新就知道我感情世界就是空的咯~

MI presentation 1 过了, 还过得去吧.
但接下来的地狱.... 不敢想象.....

.... 好像没什么好写了.... 哈哈.
最近嘛, 生活里多了一道能让我大笑微笑的声音.
像朋友说的, 是好事吧.
但是.... 哈哈, 这方面不能多说啊~
我自己也不该说, 不该想.

那我写来干嘛 ? 纯粹吊你瘾 =]
如果你是我那班三八到要命的朋友中的其中一位, 我就是说你了.

再来就是想和位朋友说, 不要执著了.
什么都藏着藏着, 我们鬼知道你藏哪啊 ?
我们又不是什么探险家啊~
如果你看见, 你会知道我在说你的 =]

***

逊呆了

2011-11-13T21:53:00.001+08:00

终于看了电影版的"那些年,我们一起追得女孩".
不想长篇大论啦,之前写得那么长还不是看的多,反应却基本上是没.... 但没关系啦, 我喜欢当自己非常有灵感写些什么时候的自己.

电影的前半段, 和朋友狂笑不止.... 对,狂笑 ! 在戏院里狂笑 ! 原因没他, 就是因为他妈的搞笑 !
电影过半后, 心情稍微沉淀.
电影最后几分钟, 我都在哭.... 落泪吧, 不算哭.. 不过是好多滴泪. .... 我有在忍啊 ! 但是...

一双眼睛的容泪量有限, 掉落的泪滴 - 只是眼睛再也容不下如此多的感触....

哈哈, 逊呆了..... !
为什么那么逊 ? 我嘛... 超感性的... 朋友中"最感性大奖" 没人有资格和我挣啦.
最后那几分钟嘛.... 有为故事而伤感, 也有因为想起自己的经历而感触啦.
有想起一些属于我自己的"沈佳宜" 的一些事情啦.

但也都过去了啦.
但是但是, 我不是九把刀..
你别要我写本小说让你看 ! 哈哈.... 当然如果你觉得我在说你, 你绝对能够对号入座 =]

***

"那些年, 我们一起追的女孩" x "那些年, 我追过的女孩"

2011-11-10T02:02:00.002+08:00

"那些年, 我们一起追的女孩", 可以说是现在的一个话题.
电影 ? 我还没看,但我会去看看.
小说 ? 刚读完,听说与电影不一样. 但一样与否,我只能说这小说值了.
这二十一年来,阅读的书本该破万卷, 四年级的我就开始翻读一本本破万字的小说.
读了那么多年的小说,本本都有它独特与精彩的地方.但 "那些年, 我们一起追的女孩" 却是第一本让我读着读着, 能够会心一笑,自我陶醉的一本书.
"那些年, 我们一起追的女孩" 故事没什么特别不一样, 但它就是精彩在非常一样, 和我们的过去总会有些一样.
读这小说的数个小时里, 我不知道微笑了多少次, 狂笑了多少次, 可惜了多少次, 懊恼了多少次.... 翻阅"那些年, 我们一起追的女孩", 就像翻阅着"那些年, 我追过的女孩"....
好啦,没那么厉害... 但我相信读过的朋友会明白我的意思.. 哈哈.

"那些年, 我们一起追的女孩".... 我倒是没试过像故事里, 一大班男生追求同一个女生的感觉... 至少不是像故事里那样... 我以前的情敌都不是我的死党,哈哈.
或许中华维新中学,并没有 "沈佳宜" 的存在吧. 我是记得数年前的我们,总在说郭荷蕊学姐有多漂亮. 但我们喜欢的何尝还不是身边的'小华', '小文' 什么的.
或者该说, 我们并没有一个共同的 "沈佳宜".

哈哈... 说实在我很欣赏作者... 八年,换来的却是一次又一次的无奈.... 何等的耐力啊~
阅读到接近尾声时, 我不知道喊了多少次"干嘛啊? 这搞屁啊,怎么就不成全他们啊?!" .... 类似的话语.
哈哈, 看... 这小说感染力非常厉害吧 ? 我想隔壁房的同屋朋友都能听见我的乱吼乱笑吧,哈哈.
再说说 "沈佳宜" 这角色吧. 我想每个人心中都有属于自己的一个"沈佳宜" , 或许某程度上没故事里的来得震撼.... 震撼或许不是那么好的形容词...
但对我来说,作者与沈佳宜的感情就是震撼, 除了震撼还是震撼啊 ! 简直就是每个热血少男想要体验的 ! 哈哈,但我已不是称格的热血少男了 (但也不至于冷血).
大家还记得从前你自认"超喜欢" 的女生吗? 现在想起来是不是有点.... 不是可笑,但就是想笑的感觉 ? 啼笑皆非 ? 差不多那样子的感觉吧.赞同吗?

"那些年, 我追过的女孩" ?
哈哈,非常无知的说下. 我得把她们归类为"未熟期" 与 "已熟期"吧.
哈哈 !!! 这么一归类法, 感觉就是我还未熟啊 !
但我相信大家会明白我的意思吧 ? 我们都会觉得自己什么时候非常稚气, 什么时候开始不再那么稚气了, 我要说的就是这意思了.

说说"未熟期"的吧, 哈哈.
中一,暗恋了一位同坐校巴的女同学. "喜欢"多时不曾表态, 时日久了大家都和我说女的其实也喜欢自己. 自己也在好一段时间后表态, 结果.... 是我错过了时机....又或者其实是被谣言摆了一局吧,哈哈.
中三, 与一位朋友关系非常要好. 哈哈... 不要脸的说下, 女的对我的表态也非常明显, 什么举动话语都表示了我却无动于衷... 记得当时是还恋着中一"喜欢"的女同学. 结果在一段日子后, 我犯贱得倒追她.... 结果当然也是自食其果,哈哈 ~

这两段过去现在想起非常逗笑, 除了傻笑我也没什么特别反应了.毕竟... 真的是很可笑啊~

那么"已熟期"呢?
中四, 认识了一位身在吉隆坡的女生,与自己距离整整700公里. 不知怎么的,喜欢上了彼此. 一份纯粹的喜欢, 让彼此鼓起了勇气要见见彼此. 700 公里对当时的我简直除了恐惧还是恐惧, 值得回味的是我打倒了恐惧, 我们会面了. 虽然到最后并没有走在一起, 但那一次我学会了勇气, 找到了值得回味的回忆. 也是第一次懂得什么叫心痛.

中五, 认识了我前女友.可以算是因为舞蹈而认识彼此吧. 最终因为种种原因,并没有继续在一起走下去.但也在我回忆里画下了一段故事.

大学第二年, 认识了我的"沈佳宜". 这女生对我而言就是有点特别... 或者说,突然间我发现了她的光芒... 哈哈, 很滑稽吧 ? 但感情这回事就是不爱出常规牌吧. 她有着那么多我不太欣赏的性格和习惯, 却也同时是我欣赏的"沈佳宜", 矛盾吗?
和"那些年, 我们一起追的女孩" 的故事一样, 年多后... 我们最终还是没走在一起. 不是那么清楚我们是不是和故事里一样,有着那么多遗憾, 错过和无奈.
但对我而言, 她就像九把刀心中的沈佳宜... 她, 就是不一样.

现在就读大学第四年, 单身, 希望会有下一个她的出现.
试图着寻找, 但明白这不能勉强.
也或许数年后才发现原来会有另一个沈佳宜, 但这我鬼懂 ? 哈哈.

朋友们,你们呢 ? 看了"那些年, 我们一起追的女孩" 看了吗 ?
看过了, 有什么体会吗? 有体会的,可以分享.
还没看的, 我也挺推荐的.

最后送上"那些年, 我们一起追的女孩" 的小说封面吧.

***

2011-11-05T19:35:00.001+08:00

Is been sometime , since I get this down.

***

ermmm....

2011-10-30T13:59:00.001+08:00

Is really been some time since I last updated my blog.
Ok, here I am.... with nothing particular in my mind.....
Seriously my life is so 'flat' and peace... ohya and dry too, even though it always rain ...
Btw, I hate it for stopping me from a basketball session, and I can't do my laundry.

Well, Soon, really soon .... my 'flat' kind of life gonna 'curve down' ..... FYP ~~~~>.<~~~~~
And gonna get even dry, I believe.... =.="

Pretty useless post right ? Yea, I know.

***

21 岁啦

2011-10-15T00:31:00.004+08:00

21 岁啦.
谢谢祝福我的所有朋友, 迟的, 准时的都谢.
当然最准时的更加谢谢了 =]
生日怎么过啊 ?
从来我的生日都是很简单的, 所以也没什么特别的写给大家看了.
感想嘛....
头头12个小时, 有少少遗憾... 原因嘛, 因为以为自己原来遭忘得那么彻底了.
但其实.... 也不紧要了, 少少遗憾真的是少少... 所以也没什么感受.
后来也发现其实不然... 其实也不是我介意吧, 只是一开始... 感叹曾经的自己那样而已.
这段嘛, 我相信会有人读个明白.
那好吧, 就当做是.... 给个属于自己的交代吧, 现在的我对这事就是这看法.

过去两年的生日, 记忆中我都没快乐没开心.
今年的生日, 我没有特别开心, 但我有快乐.
平平淡淡的一天, 简简单单的快乐.... 也没什么好奢求了.

若问我再来一次, 我会再走上过去两年里的路程吗 ?
其实我没有很明确的答案.
我只知道, 我现在站起来了.... 若再跌多一次, 我会再爬一次... 再摔一次, 再爬一次...
如果我爬得起, 为什么跌不起呢 ?
然而问我... 再来一次, 这次不跌了呢 ?
我也没有很明确的答案.
我只知道, 我不是戏剧组里的演员, NG ? 它并不存在.

关于这件事, 听听 - 田馥甄【還是要幸福】

没那么的悲情. 不过歌词, 送给某某, 实在也说得上恰当.

好吧, 好像写得有点 down 了.
Hmmm.... 说说别的吧.

FYP ..... 我靠, 更 DOWNNNNNNNN ......

算了吧, 毕竟现在我身在赛城, HEBE 的歌声陪着我.
还写得出很 HIGH 的感觉.... 我也应该是铁石心肠吧.
赛城在软化情绪这方面的功力, 绝对给力 ....

***

( )

2011-09-28T23:52:00.000+08:00

我有出去走, 去逛街, 甚至花钱.
但是我还是很空虚.

***

Wish me a safe trip.

2011-09-24T00:07:00.001+08:00

Going back to kuantan tomorrow.
hhmmm.... I always get somehow down when comes to this.
Well, i love my family, my home is 10 times better than d12a too.
But seriously.... Kuantan only makes me to feel more empty all the time..... basically 0 friends back there.... doesn't even know my neighbours...

Since I am driving back this time. Hope I can find sometime and goes down to KT for a few days ?
Well, just looking back at the place where i grew up. Hopefully with someone's accompany as a plus.

There are some feelings in here.... but nope, not gonna write these this time.
Just not yet.

Wish me a safe trip.

***

小事一记

2011-09-15T15:29:00.001+08:00

在 intern 期间, 公司给我印了叠名片. 没给过什么人, 给的都是些亲戚朋友的.
今天, 我派出了我第一张名片. 给了个 60 出头的 aunty 婆婆.

当然重点不是在于这名片, 重点是在于因为这婆婆, 我有了什么样的想法和感想.
事情发生在蒲种的一间饭店里 -

点了碟鸡饭, 吃着吃着....
婆婆 : "年轻人, 能给我个半分钟听听我说些事情吗 ?"
念在我也没什么赶时间, 我也没必要那么快就决定把她驱走. ( 第一印象当然就是一些混账又要来推销博同情了.)
她也开始了她的故事, 给我看了些名片, mykad 等等的.
大概来说, 她说她是在帮位 20 出头的年轻人筹款. 这年轻人丧失了行走的本事.... 不用我细说, 我想很多人都知道这情况是怎么个样子了.

故事说完后, 她要我替她买下一包价值 rm10 的原子笔.
我也买下了, 出于大半的自愿, 小半的打发.
怎么会有大半小半呢 ?
就先说说小半吧. 小半是在于他说的故事, 有些小破绽. 比如说, 身为院长女儿的她为什么对医药那么陌生等等.
大半的愿意又怎么说呢 ? 这婆婆, 自称 65 岁, 在我眼里看来也至少 50.
一个婆婆这把年纪, 背着一大包沉重的原子笔, 站在那和我所了至少五分钟, 说的时候也带有少少激情. 我能不动容吗 ?
当然我不否认说这可以是她对这的拿捏已经非常好, 出来推销自然这方面不会差.
但是我再想起了多少的原因, 我都自己一一推反了.
60 几岁了.... 我妈也快 60 了... 如果换做是我妈, 这样在街上四处推销原子笔什么的, 我又什么滋味呢 ?
而如果其实她说的都是实话, 难道就 rm10 也会要我命吗 ?
加上六枝原子笔 rm10 也不过分.

而婆婆在我买下了原子笔后对我说的一番话也让我有所感触.
婆婆在高兴的收下钱后和我说了不少事情.
婆婆是个对脸象似乎有些认识的婆婆. 说到这里有点莫名其妙, 但我也都写了吧.
婆婆:"你眉毛很有气势, 但是黑眼圈极深... 会影响运势. 鼻子也不错. 嘴巴和鼻的距离短了点..... xxxx ( 一大堆我不明白的名词, 总来说是没那么好 ). 要吃多点, 两颊再圆润点会更好. 你的青年运不错, 但是过了青年就平平了. 现在的你要坚强努力, 这样在青年时成下事业就没问题了."
她对我说时, 脸色认真诚恳. 说到我那里不好时更是多番提醒.
是真是假也好, 单单那诚恳的眼神, 我就觉得我实在没理由继续质疑什么了.对吗 ?
之后她也问了我在做些什么工作, 要了我名片.
而这五分钟内, 她从来就是背着那袋原子笔,没坐下来, 一直都在站着.
说实在的,就算她骗了我, 我也心甘情愿了.

一直都在以比较认真的语气写着这一小事. 现在就以比较轻松得结尾吧.
在我站起来的那瞬间, 她说了一句 "年轻人, 你很高, 样子也好看~"
哈哈, 当然这可以单纯是种道谢的方式.... 但是... 我就是对这赞美非常的没抵抗能力 ! 哈哈 !
还有她向我要了名片, 难道我再也不孩子气, 像个青少年了吗 ? 这其实是好事, 都 21 了, 还要孩子气吗 ?

这实在是小事一记. 但我们这一生, 这些小事你又能说没意思吗 ?

一朵花再小, 它也有它灿烂的一面.

***

Wish List !

2011-09-03T03:05:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.... new interface for blogger, much cleaner, good.
But image managing in a post still sucks big time.

Ok, since it is September now and October is coming real soon....
So yeap, i think writing this kinda make sense.Hahahaha ! My wishlist for my upcoming birthday !Is actually my first time writing such kind of post, and i know it sounds so SYOK SENDIRI.Anyway, im not expecting any of the items or stuff i gonna write below. Just take it as a random post.

THE SERIOUSLY IMPOSSIBLE :

Lexus is250, bmw 3 series.... etc. LOL !
A more practical one would be this though,

Kia Forte with Body kit, I still think it is a good bang for its value for cars under RM100K.

THE STILL NOT POSSIBLE :

A decent keyboard ( instrument ), well I can't really play it, but I wanna learn it.

Samsung Galaxy S2, the android beast ! ( Seriously, if u ask me why not iphone5 or 4.... I can just say i'm not into I-thingy. )

Samsung Galaxy Tab 7.7 ( Same here, I still prefer android here. And 7.7 is surely outstanding ! )

OK.... STILL HARDLY POSSIBLE.

For this.... there are just too much. For example, a decent watch or stuffs like that. Usually stuff with price tags of hundreds.

WELL, MAYBE ?

Accessories. I like rings, pendant, wallet and sorta stuff. Well, earrings is excluded since mine one closed up quite sometime ago and i don't plan to make one anymore. However..... I only wear if I think it would mean something to me, haha >.<
So if I wear something you gave me, you must be special in a way for me.

Some small gifts. In any forms ! I would appreciate every single little stuff, seriously. Even just a hand written notes. Since nowadays, people just don't do that anymore.

THE EXPECTED ?

Ok, facebook wishes and sms wishes. Well, I still love them. But i know very well whether there are sincerity in that kind of wishes or not. But yeah~ still appreciate them. And between fb and sms ? SMS ok ? At least you take out your phone and type something, a phone call will surely make me =D too.

THE LONG WISHED

Someone. All the time.

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Guess that would be enough. Since if I were to write all out, I guess it will be too long for reading, hahahaha ~ SYOK SENDIRI too much !

BTW, do check out this link :
http://www.12xz.com/oubb/567678.html
Is about Libra, and it is damn true ~ Do read and do tell me does it resembles me, haha.

***

偶尔

2011-08-22T01:37:00.000+08:00

好像突然间遭什么拖了后褪一下....
down 了点.
算了吧, 也挺久没这样了. 偶尔沉淀也算好事,

还有.... 对, 是的, 你说对了.

***

48/22, jalan cerong langjut

2011-08-09T23:13:00.001+08:00

刚看完了一套以前中学时看过的动画片.
感觉很怀念的, 并不是怀念那套动画片, 而是怀念那时的年代.
生活在 48/22, jalan cerong langjut 的那段时间.

七岁时搬到了那里, 既然敢敢走进了隔壁邻居的家了, 也这样认识了林 .... see pei (不会写啦) 和曾清文.
也慢慢接着认识了更多的朋友.
说起来, 我那个年代还是每天五点钟, 所有小朋友都会自动跑到街上玩耍的年代.
抓迷藏, 追追, 莲花开的时代.... 哈哈, 恐怕不是每个人体验过了. 我可是刚好走在那个年代的尾段, 所以总算还有些体验了.
那时候的中秋节可不是开玩笑. 节日前两个月 ! 大家都开始提灯笼点蜡烛了 !
现在嘛.... 别说两个月了, 恐怕连正日都没小朋友提灯笼了.
要知道, 当一大班小孩子一起巡街提灯笼时, 那是多么的精彩啊 !
还记得那时候都是'穿山越岭'的 ! 誓要从这街走到那街, 就要走到那里去 ! 然后和其他区的小朋友汇聚 !
我想当时候, air jernih + cerong lanjut 的小孩可以到达上百吧 !
一百个小孩再加上家长们, 多么热闹啊 !
这我相信现在的小孩都不会明白的 ! 现在的我... 多么想回到那日子呢...
每天探望朋友的日子, 每天一起看动画片的日子, 每天一起追逐的日子...
还记得小孩子的我们, 甚至能下决心要一起通沟 ! 看见自己 '地头'沟渠不流顺, 小孩的我们都会知道要弄干净.
哈哈, 那时候啊, 折腾了半天 ! 到最后也通不了多少, 毕竟小孩子啊, 力气也不大. 倒是记得, 我们隔天都在聊自己早一天父母如何'刷'我们了, 哈哈 !
咳... 那份单纯... 恐怕就连我自己也所剩无几... 虽然我一直在和自己说, 再怎样变, 本质绝对不能变...
但恐怕现在的我在那时候的我的眼里... 已经是个坏哥哥了.

以前的我们, 一起玩 lego 就爽呆了. 虽然其实我贡献最少, 爸都不买给我. 所以总是在大家一起分享玩具时, 我总是分享最少, 共享最多了... 哈哈.
说到玩具... 老豆只送过我一两个.... 最记得是自己有次发高烧时, 老豆买了机械人给我. 是 power ranger 的, 但我也记得当时我有失望... 因为我是期盼着 gundam 的. 哈哈.... 真是的, 孩子气啊.... 那时的我就不对了...
写着写着又想起了许多以前父母为我奉献过, 而我却不怎么珍惜的许多许多... 我或许在许多朋友的眼中是个本质不错的男生, 但其实自己还有许多不好... 太多太多了.... 特别是在我父母眼里, 更是永远长不大了.
父母对我的期盼... 我办到的又有多少呢... 让他们失望的又有多少呢...
我总在和自己说要好好做人. 甚至很喜欢'三好'这概念 ! 但缺点我也太多了... 懒惰, 懦弱.. 等等.
所以我还是相信我母亲和我说的, 做人一定要存好心, 对人一定要诚, 能帮就帮.
哈哈, 很像 '三好' ? 或许吧, 我很庆幸我母亲从小就灌输我这些想法. 虽然我还是做得不够好...

哈哈... 话题怎么说到我自己了.
把话题说回来吧, 小时候的生活, 实在太好了. 小时总想着要长大, 现在21了, 却觉得还是12好点, 矛盾吧.
你们呢 ? 对对, 你. 你的童年又是怎么一回事呢 ?
哈哈... 不过其实我知道这部落格的读者都走光了... 而一开始的读者其实也不多.
但如果你读到这了, 谢啦 ~ 我知道我的部落格简直就无聊, 都在写自己, 所以...如果你还是都读了,真该谢谢你了 !

***

當冬夜漸暖

2011-07-31T01:59:00.001+08:00

很多事情不是誰說了就算

即使傷心結果還是自己擔

多少次失望表示著多少次期盼

事實證明幸福很難

我們之間不是誰說了就算

拉扯的愛徒增結局的難堪

一百次相愛只要有一次的絢爛

下一次會更勇敢

當冬夜漸暖當大海也不再那麼藍

當月色的純白變得陰暗

那只是代表快樂不再那麼簡單

當冬夜漸暖當夏夜的樹上不再有蟬

當回憶老去的痕跡斑斑

那只是因為悲傷從來都不會有答案

當冬夜漸暖當青春也都煙消雲散

當美麗的故事都有遺憾

那只是習慣把愛當做喜歡

重要的是我們如何愛過那一段

想要特别标大一些词句, 却发现... 都那么深刻.

都标, 还不如不标.

感觉上, 歌词或许写得直截了当, 可以更深刻.

但冷冻的夜色渐渐有了暖意, 这... 就刚刚好了.

当冬夜渐暖....

***

wa cha ~

2011-07-29T20:23:00.004+08:00

ET, 1 of my favorite track to dance with. ( Or should i say ... to move with... since my dance is not qualified as a dance @@ )

I really hope i can dance like this, especially the VALENTINO at the end. If you are asking me 'attend a class ?' , then i would say 'too bad... i guess i wont... not anymore.' ( used to have this wish when i was secondary b4 the incident.) I am not talented anyway, it took me months just to get 1 simple freeze and simple uprocking and toprocking down last time @@.

Bleeding love, oso 1 of my favorite to sing and to move with track. Emotional dance, I likey very much !

Whatcha say, all my friends know i cant stay hold when this song plays.

And there are so much more ! Basically any song can make me move, even ballad ok ? haha.

Nah, just a random post to keep the blog alive.

***

空乏却沉重.

2011-07-16T00:35:00.002+08:00

每个周末都会非常低落.
原因自己也说不清.... 但也算懂个概念.
一颗填不满的心房... 空乏却沉重.

***

大家有無諗過, 男方每一句都是 "真話", 沒有一句是"反話" 真的是 "我沒有說謊" 這首歌深一層的意思是 : 表面上, 每人都以為我在"逞強" 實際上 "我哪有說謊" ? 失戀? 早就習慣了, 其實不是什麼傷只可以說是天命罷這方面在 MV 很多地方都見到 MV中的獨白 "我更像一根針, 傷人也自傷, 這是針尖般的孤獨" 針尖會傷人, 但針尖傷人後也會變鈍(自傷), 可是沒有人會親近針尖, 我就是針尖一般孤獨另外, MV 中男方遇上任何事都是同一個表情, 就是沒有表情.. 所有事都早已看化了最後, 男主角心口慘出血一般的玫瑰, 可是男主角面上還是沒有痛苦的表情心, 還是會傷的, 但已經不痛了, 最後再加上獨白 : "我已經開始想念那種痛了" 意思是: 在某年某月, 我的心曾經是痛的現在不痛了, 我開始想念那種痛了

是youtube 的一个用户写的.
赞同, 就放上来了.

***

淡定啊

2011-07-10T01:13:00.000+08:00

我承认我对物质是有一定的欲望.
但是林宜运, 要淡定啊, 不要聪明一世一朝丧.
要想想, 那些是需求还是要求啊 !
没那么大头, 就别戴那么大顶帽了. 玩不起的 !

***

说说自己吧.... 很想尝试, 但是恐怕再也经不起打击了, 胆怯啊 ~
但是, 不尝试, 就肯定没望的.....
不知道. 一样的, 淡定啊, 见步行步吧.

***

台前台后.

2011-07-02T00:51:00.001+08:00

舞台上, 华丽的舞姿, 幽雅的对话, 完美的气派.
舞台后, 艰辛的付出, 难堪的空虚, 冷清的局面.

人生就像一场戏, 大家都那么说.
如果人生真是一场戏, 有多少人称得上是主角, 又有多少人永远只是个路人甲 ?
大家都想主宰自己的剧情, 大家都想成为最中心的中心. 但, 做得到又有多少人呢 ?

一些人站在了舞台的中心, 傲慢, 不可一世.
一些人站在舞台的边缘, 自卑, 抬不起头.
一些人站在舞台的边缘, 奋斗, 不泄气.
站在这样的一个舞台上, 各式各样的角色, 数也数不尽.
站在这样的一个舞台上, 各式各样的情景, 想也想不透.
这舞台... 生命这舞台, 没有具体的格式, 没有具体的大小, 没有具体的表演时间.... 有的, 只是一个模糊的概念.. 而这概念, 若有十个演出者, 就会有十种不一样的体会...

生命这舞台, 并没有坐在台下的观众, 未必会有人欣赏自己的演出... 但这舞台剧, 每个人都逃不了, 甩不去.
在这舞台上, 所有人都把自己当主角.... 不奇怪... 少了观众, 焦点没了, 唯有把焦点放在自己身上, 对吗 ?
而把自己当成了主角, 尽所能表现自己... 这不出奇.
而表现得再好, 再华丽.... 始终没人知道自己到底是不是主角...
唯有得到他人的认同... 或许会觉得自己是有价值的.
得不到认同的... 永远表现着最好的自己, 却不知道自己究竟有多幽雅, 多唯美...
跳着自己最华丽的舞姿, 感受到的或许只是艰辛和压力.
幽雅得谈笑风声, 感受到的或许只是无尽的空虚.
把自己呈现得再有气派, 感受到的或许只是自己嘲笑自己.

而你, 在这舞台上, 又扮演着怎样的一个角色呢 ?
我.... ?　我只是一个等待着认同的舞者．随着自己心跳的旋律，扮演一个演出者的角色.

***

I just need someone to talk to me the way i talk to them.

***

相声词.

2011-06-26T00:49:00.004+08:00

nya................
sigh...........
arghhhh..............
sob sob...........
tsk tsk.......

****

虽然工作了, 但是还是觉得自己很 lifeless....

***

不是第一次放上来了.

***

穷到.....

2011-06-19T11:34:00.001+08:00

穷到.....
上个 sem 累积下来的花费, 到现在还是很有压力.
等着那狗屁 ptptn 和 says.my 里头的 RM100++ !
还有我的 allowance.... T.T

要买个洗脸霜都要想那种....
真需要多谢老板总在请我和同事午餐.... 否则....
@@
有时真的搞不懂为什么一个星期就可以飞走接近 RM200 咯.
没有买多余的, 就吃而已啊....
虽然是有 topup touchNgo, 打油等等.
但很痛咯, 我包包 !

***

大动作, 小细节

2011-06-16T17:46:00.004+08:00

关于这话题, 刚刚在返回家的路途就想了一遍.
这一次, 写的或许会让你们感觉 "怎么方向那么的漂浮 ?"
但或许一些人还是能看明白的.

先不直接进入话题. 把话题岔到一些大家不太明白的话题上, 不过这话题或许有些人就了如指掌.
比较熟的朋友都知道, 我电玩打得并没很多, 但是 DOTA 却称得上热诚.
很多人都说过, 一个男生打 DOTA 的方式就是他们待人处事的方式. 关于这一点, 我自己身位一个玩家, 我就非常赞同.
我有许多主打 Carry 的朋友, 他们在生活确实也就是自信满满, 能够独当一面.
爱打补助的朋友, 也都比较低凋, 比较冷静.
而我呢, 虽然有时会打下主 C 副 C, 但是大家都知道, 3, 4, 5 号位才是我发挥的岗位.
我不计较买眼 ( ward ), 买鸟 ( flying courier ), 代死等等.
但这都不是在说我打补助很牛, 我的冰女 ( crystal maiden ) 就菜得要命.... 就连自己都看不过眼那种.
那我爱打什么呢 ? 其实最爱就是爱打一些 3 号位的.... 比如说冰雷卡尔 ( qw invoker ), 风行 ( windrunner ), 蝙蝠 ( batrider ), 死灵龙 ( visage ) 等等.
会玩的读者一看就知道这些是出名的 3 号位, 带节奏, 顾全大局, 左顾右盼的岗位.
但是我 gank 其实也不厉害. ( dota 根本就不厉害的, 还是经常打路人被人虐, 被说菜鸟 - noob. )
说了那么多, 可以开始联系回主题了. 对了, 所列出的喜好英雄都是被公认了需要比较高端操控的. 特别是冰雷卡尔了.需要比较高端操控的英雄都有一个共同点, 就是必须很注重小细节.

一个错误的召唤, 卡尔可以等同废物就是一个例子.
而这些小细节就是影响大局的因素. 而往往这一类英雄是大家避免的,因为你需要细节才能发挥,就算发挥了你始终还只是个补助的,核心永远不是摆在你身上.( 这样的角色不是所有人都爱啊. )

用了那么长的例子来说, 要说的就是我和 dota 里的我一样. 觉得大局重要, 却往往牵制于小细节上.
小细节对我来说, 很多事情很多时候对我的影响都比一个大举动来得更有影响力. 我喜欢小细节.

打个例子吧. 曾经有个女生为了要向我借些东西, 于是一起步行回到了我家.
整个过程, 我就是忽视她, 一句话也不说. 到家了, 交了东西就草草交代就说再见了.
之后在她部落格上发现她却把当天的过程记载下来了, 还说了一些别的. 当时我很感动.... 部落格, 那么一个小的细节... 真切的让我感触了.

我自己也一样. 大举动我基本上不做.... 懂我的就知道, 我都在小细节上下心思.
或许... 这样子感觉很畏缩吧... 我也懂. 但是每个人都有自己的个性, 自私点来说, 我就是这样的.

为什么写这些有的没的呢 ? 其实也是突然有了些灵感, 想写就写.
其实也甚至不想小题大作, 常来的读者就知道我有本事绕着一件简单的事情做文章.
而真真触发这灵感的.... 或许... 是最近有个人的许多小动作, 小细节有点摇摆了我, 所以会有这样的灵感吧. 也有想过以一样的细节做答复... 但不该就是不该. ( 我要淡定啊.... )

大动作, 不喜欢, 不敏感.
小细节, 我喜欢, 也敏感.

***

个人问题

2011-06-11T00:19:00.006+08:00

工作不是不好. 只是抛开所有工作必有的烦恼... 工作了, 新的生活方式和环境了...
却还是不够好.

个人问题吧, 一个非常容易遭到音乐影响的小子. 却又偏爱伤感的歌曲.
个人问题吧, 一个非常厉害联想的小子, 却又偏爱胡思乱想.

也有可能只是累啊.

或许我真真需要的不是新的环境, 而是新的意境.
又或许不需要什么意境, 只需要更加平静...
但我.. 很平静了..
我不想随随便便就给自己定下一个自己接下来要前进的方向.
那是冲动, 那是不加思索.

我知道自己最近在想什么, 也知道该或不该.
所以我需要好好条理条理, 不想又踏上错的列车.

***

如果我能忍住不哭，假裝我什麼也不知道
你會不會停留，直到我能用力微笑
如果我不期待擁抱，好讓你放心走得輕巧
你能不能回頭，勉為其難對我安慰，不要自找煩惱

難道愛情虛有其表，還是太認真才輸掉

想不開就不想，得不到就不要

誰說分手不曾預料，只有走得慢點就好，
不要天荒地老，只有哭到睡著。

如果我不期望回報，承認感情從來沒公道

你會不會後悔，你把我拋棄得太早，

如果我縱容你選擇，還為你幸福大聲祈禱，

你會不會聽到我在內心輕輕求饒

不要太快逃跑。

難道愛情虛有其表，還是太認真才輸掉

想不開就不想，得不到就不要

誰說分手不曾預料，只有走得慢點就好，
不要天荒地老，只有哭到睡著。

晚了，別鬧。

很多道理我都知道，流完淚水就能做到

想不開就不想，得不到就不要

誰說分手不曾預料，只要好來好去就好。

不要哭得太吵，否則怎能睡著，
只要還有眼淚就好

***

Impturm.

2011-06-08T22:42:00.001+08:00

Started my internship... Is been 3 days and tomorrow would be the 4th day.
Frankly speaking, I am not really ready for it. Physically, mentally and maybe skill-wise too. And I am not really that creative among the designers.... better than average kind of guy, but kinda sucks in my field.

For those who knows me well... you guys sure know sleep means so much to me ! And I just can say, I'm losing them =[

Stress-wise ? Yea, sure it is and I'm sure it will get worse as time goes by.
3 months .... can I handle it ? I hope I can.

Well.... let aside the negativity, let's talk about some good stuff.
The working environment actually suits me. With cute little Mabel there, it can really brighten up the day =]
And I just love looking at cute kids. Especially when they are laughing and smiling ~
I shouldn't talk much about my bosses, hahaha. Good or bad, I just shouldn't write it here.
Ok, colleague ? Another intern girl named ... Should I write that out ? haha.
But so far, she is good. I'm sure her skill and creativity are way better than me. I have learned a few of this and that by observing and asking her.
Sounds like a kind girl for me, can play along with Mabel, friendly enough. Maybe as time goes by, I can make a new friend myself.

Well, some might ask "colleague ? Not colleagues ?"
But yea... other than bosses, there are only 1 person who are on-par with me in the company.

I guess that is some okok stuff ?
Bless me well this coming 3 months.

***

There are things that are meaningful, but at the same thing being meaningless. 时势造人.... 这时势, 我能做的并不多.

Sorry anyway...

***

云雨无测.

2011-06-01T00:02:00.003+08:00

还是那么赞.

现在听起来, 一样的歌词，　稍微不同的体会．

开始的
雨问云因何事愁, 不知云愁雨落雨无情.

现在的
忆云思雨, 无奈自古雨过既天晴, 云雨何迹又何留 ?

***

自私点.
是你们欠我的, 我不讨債, 不代表就没亏欠.
自私点, 伤也受少点.
自私点, 却不尽全, 没那么贱种.
伟大点 ? 萧洒点 ? 办不到, 原则上不对, 也不够伟大.
自私点, 就一点点, 我会好过点.

***

是真是假也没关系了

2011-05-26T22:14:00.000+08:00

只是没想到, 其实那么不堪...
自己给了理由就好了... 是真是假也没关系了.
事情这样发展是自己预料的, 就该微笑迎接.
要学会告诉自己, 这才是对的.

***

空白格

2011-05-21T01:42:00.001+08:00

***

无题

2011-05-16T23:49:00.002+08:00

我会想要有个她会尝试体会我，尝试就好... 彼来彼去.. 才对, 不是吗 ?
但或许老天觉得这就很过份了.

***

还是一样啊...

2011-05-14T03:52:00.001+08:00

发现我之前写的.... 不见了... 算了吧... 其实也没什么 .
说的不外是... 交了份功课, 这月底对我来说有意思... 却也没意思... 就这样.

现在心情嘛... 总好过前几天吧, 至少没那么忙了.... 功课, 让我及格... 我会开心了.
有些人会忙, 忙到没时间开心.
我也一样啦... 只是多了一项... 我忙时, 我会忘了看看内心的自己.
现在看一看.... 唉... 还是一样啊...
哈哈....

***

敷衍更新

2011-05-12T23:37:00.000+08:00

把 MI 那　狗屁的作品交上去...
有 GG 的感觉...　算了,　不要去想了.
再把 ED　做好,　明天搞平那 intern... 应该就可以好好休息一小段时间吧．
这月尾.和家人有个 trip 呢...　啊...　这月尾也有个有意思的日子...　但,　轮不到我去理了...

敷衍地更新吧...　反正最近也没以前那样经常写部落格了....　对.....　少写很多很多了.

***

很重...

2011-05-06T00:26:00.002+08:00

如果有留意的朋友，　一定会发现我最近写的都是在说自己不佳的状况．
这一则.．．．　似乎也不例外．
在车上几近一个小时.．．．　悲观的思绪就缠了我一个小时.
我会认我比较自卑，　但平时好在悠悠闲闲．．．　压力总是虚弱不了我.
当然．．　年纪越大,　这也慢慢改变着.．
其实说穿了.．．．　所谓的压力也没什么超乎寻常的.
功课压力．．．　朋友一样有.
找工压力．．．朋友也有.
情绪呢.．．　？　当然... 这大家都不一样.. 比我糟糕的也肯定有.
如果说悠闲的心态是能够遭时间和经历磨灭... 那或许这两年来, 我确实已耗费了许多自己的精力和抵抗力...
现在自己小小事情都会懊恼...
甚至逃避的想法不断涌现... 说得不负责任点, 好似明白了为什么会有人想要自杀...
当然我不会... 只是问题永远都是选择于去面对和逃避. 而逃避那方面... 那确实是挺彻底的方法... 当然也是最不负责任的方法...

在车上自己脑里想过要写的... 或许能写上万字.
但是现在似乎千字也到不了...
其实我不敢写那么多, 不敢写得太深入.
说穿了, 我会在乎人家如何看待我...
换是数年前.... 我不会去在乎....
这也是一个例子吧... 人年纪越是增长, 想法越是复杂...
越复杂.. 感觉的负担也越多吧... 负担越多, 压力就越大.

试想下... 那我父母的负担不是超标了吗 ?
而如果压力能数据化, 我想我的压力值一定很平常.... 但我却经常几乎瓦解了....
逊....　

如果小孩的压力值是 0
中学生的压力值是 80-100.
我的压力值是 200-300.
那那些总裁会不会是 2000 呢 ?
那我们的父母呢 ?

***

既然写了些... 再透露一些吧.
最近似乎也明白了讨厌... 厌恶一个人的滋味....
我就是一听见这人就纳闷, 看见这人就郁闷, 看见又听见我就会抓狂 !
其实理由并不合理.... 并不充分.
但就让我这 21 年来第一次自私得彻底点吧 !
既然没人对我仁慈同情, 那为什么我要做这好人呢.... 起码对他, 我不要做好人.

***

刺身.

2011-04-22T18:39:00.001+08:00

常听人说... 常看见人家写.. 一些人永远会是你最熟悉的陌生人...
其实也没说错... 有些人, 就是那么陌生... 却又那么熟悉.

我懂你... 我却不懂你...
很矛盾吧...

我想会有人明白, 也会有人怎么也想不通....
我呢 ? 我明白... 但是我想不通...
不想吗... ? 我不够洒脱吧.
有些话语, 有些画面, 有些回忆... 就像烙印般深深烙在心里..

大家都知道刺身是什么回事吧.
一旦刺入, 你除不去...
执意要把它除去, 那过程则是无比的疼痛..

而你... 刺得我好深...
这刺身... 刺在心里... 没人看得见...
只有我自己知道... 刺得究竟有多深.

***

快疯了

2011-04-19T01:59:00.000+08:00

什么都不想干了, 能吗 ?
真的就打从心底的空.... 快疯了.
人家说会有绝地反弹.... 但干嘛我就弹不起来嘛....
像颗石子一动不动了.....

瞬间觉得自己怎么就好像没什么价值了....
回家帮父母手还算个乖孩子... 我在赛城呆一日, 我就越是慌一日, 空一日.

快疯了.

***

茫然

2011-04-13T22:04:00.000+08:00

不知道自己最近怎么了....
所有事情感觉不对就对了...
以前, 这样的情况时, 我会和几位朋友, 一起坐在山上, 一起躺在草地上, 一起坐在沙滩上, 一起在公路旁数车辆... 感觉心胸会放宽许多.
现在就连想要和我去屋后游乐场待会儿的朋友也没有... 也难怪... 又有多少人像我这样... 喜欢吹风, 喜欢看星空的.
我不会抵赖一些事情或许是其中的原因... 但我想除了那之外, 也有许多无形的因素...
自己常说事情要面对... 但是自己就连自己面着什么也不清楚... 想逃也很可笑的, 逃什么也不知道.

茫然该是这样一个情况吧.

***

2011-04-09T16:56:00.000+08:00

Then can I blame you for the exactly same reason ?

***

Clicks needed

2011-04-04T17:52:00.007+08:00

http://says.my/rhythmyun/bday
http://says.my/rhythmyun/tigeramf
http://says.my/rhythmyun/maybankard2-microsite
http://says.my/rhythmyun/axiata3
http://says.my/rhythmyun/8tv-1

http://www.churpchurp.com/rhythmyun/share/nhw-profilertest
http://www.churpchurp.comrhythmyun/share/digi-fbanniversary1
http://www.churpchurp.com/rhythmyun/share/CadburyChoclairs
http://www.churpchurp.com/rhythmyun/share/aax-newzealand

To all my readers. I know this sounds like phishing or whatever you name it.
I seriously hope you guys can help me click on these links.

Step1: Open link in new tab
Step2: Wait till it loaded finish, and then close it.

Yesh, thats all. I don't even need your signing up, your like or whatsoever.
But of course, do this only if you are free or feel like helping.
For anyone who helps with clicking the link, thanks a lot =]

<3

***

Ace

2011-03-29T03:09:00.002+08:00

Satisfy with my 3rd family members, Ace-zai.
Altho not 101% smooth or perfect... but since i haven't rooted it, maybe it can be even better ?
But in anyway, is so much better than my k530i, right ?
Plus, i don't have the face for iWhat thingy.... even with budget, i will lay my hands on SGS2 as well.
If pingguo is about the number 1, if la.... then as usual, i would like to be the runner up.
Which is something you can say is unique about me ... i just don't like being at the top, second sounds better for me.

Nothing so spectacular with my Galaxy Ace... So no need post what photo la... not that luxurious pun.
Just ... i think i should update this blog once a while.

***

我习惯了无数的习惯, 你告诉我说 "好多习惯~" ...
一年半载后, 或许你懂了什么是习惯... 把那一习惯乘于百倍, 这或许就是我的感受...
而你又知道我这些习惯, 少了它们, 我有多不习惯吗.... ?

背对背拥抱

滥用沉默在咆哮

背对背拥抱

真话兜着圈子乱乱绕

***

<3

***

Just my 2 cents.

2011-03-19T01:16:00.001+08:00

What's big nowadays ? I'm sure everyone know about all the disaster happening over Japan.
Struck by a 9.0 magnitude earthquake, coast-side city washed by high tide and tsunami. And when worse come to worse, the potential devastating happening at Fukushima, Japan.
Lethal radiation are all over the air, generator fails down 1 by 1 and emergency restoration doesn't progress much.
Reaching level 5 of radiation level/radiation crisis, thus far the second lethal in human history.
Japan is desperate, and so do everyone in this world. If things get any worse, if the nuclear plant goes meltdown... nobodies know what will happen to Japan and countries nearby Japan. And remembering how my physics teacher taught me, radiation is something that spread on like no one's business .... perhaps the whole world will be affected. Well, yes or no , this is something everyone should concern with.

Regarding the issue at Fukushima, my deepest respect will be towards the Fukushima 50.
The volunteers who volunteer to risk their life fixing the reactor. And instead of 'risk' .... we all know that they simply won't survive. Radiation poison took years to develop into cancer and the progress is as hell of suffering. Constant vomit, losing immunities ..... just how brave those volunteers are...
Some of them even have families .... some of them even told their families farewell ... all of them know they will be dying ...
While everyone is complaining about how fragile humanity is .... this 50 shows us ... humanity can be noble even when you are just a blue collar worker of a power plant. Anonymous as they are, they are real life heroes !

http://abcnews.go.com/International/fukushima-50-line-defense-japanese-nuclear-complex/story?id=13147746&page=1

This link tells more about them.

On top of that, I would like to say how disappoint I am with my country's government. We all see how much risk behind a nuclear power plant is there. And yet they are so confident in building 2 by 2021... investing RM21 billion worth of money in it. Pathetic, I would say.... Japan as 1 of the leading country in this world even struggles with it, and now my country which can't even fix water leakage claims to have what it takes ?!
I know what are possible it their minds. 1st of all, nuclear plant can drive our production rate so much more, so much effective and efficient. 2nd, with the increment in production, we makes $$$$. Then, with $$$ we can excel into developed country !
Oh... wait ... let me fix the last part, "Then, with $$$$, we can enjoys our life ~! The countrymen ? Hey, they should be proud. We own 2 nuclear power plants~ which emits a lil... bit of radioactive though..."
I do agree that development of my country is important, but not at that stake ! When everyone is voicing go green, our government plans to go grim. ( Sarcastically, radioactive material are always illustrated in green color.... lol... so yeah, go green... =.= )

Is kinda rare for me to voice up like this in my own blog.
So .... yea, i am ready for any criticism ( if they are. )
But i bet most people thinks alike.

Lastly, my prayers for the Japanese. Bless them.

***

我能體諒

2011-03-17T02:21:00.006+08:00

終於明白美好的往往留不下
卻能給人最深最遠的影響
你笑容裡的暖洋你說過的每句話
總是陪著我出門又陪著我回家
很感謝你給我了好長的依靠
那種甜蜜不是想要就能得到
我會微笑著退讓全歸你的功勞
儘管眼淚不知不覺的流下

我能體諒你離開我的身旁超越我的感傷
我能體諒你要的那個遠方讓我追不上
都那麼的愛过有什麼不能為不能為對方著想

我能體諒你肩膀除了自由都不願意扛
我能體諒你的心多麼害怕被綑綁
就讓愛的人也能愛他所愛也算是幸福啊

因為愛你我上了最好的一課
原來成長不只是一味的快樂
你忠於你的選擇要更好的人生
我不能陪你至少要幫你完成

***

都一段日子了... 却兜回了原点...
或许深埋不代表解脱.
但我不会让自己逗留太久... 这, 我能答应.

***

又向邻居'借用'了.

2011-03-11T00:52:00.001+08:00

对, 上着网了. 不过不是因为 unifi 好了, 是又向邻居'借用'了.
前几天, 突然很有冲动得想要写篇关于曾经的题材.
但现在... 既然意念褪色了, 也其实没必要写出来... 所以, 哈哈... 不写了吧.

最近觉得痛透了, 是钱包.
缴费就一大笔钱了.... 之后还要烧一大笔.
不是不知道钱银难赚.... haiz... 能有些额外的收入就好了.
也真的要左省右省的.... 最遭是最基本的吃, 我就办不到全省了.... 太便宜的不好吃, 吃不下也浪费那样子.

这学期嘛.... 应该也会挺有难度的... 基本上... 从来没容易过.... >.<
不那么喜欢的是... 假期总感觉好短.
这个假期都在忙, 都没什么好好休息就回到赛城了.... 遗憾.

大姐过门了. 以后新年, 感觉就不一样了.... 但这难免吧.
席酒当天还挺开心的, 虽然有些不愉快的事情发生.. 但无关紧要, 没关系.

现在真的好想就躺在家里的大床上, 听歌, 休息.... 我就满足了.
很多时候, 还是会感觉好累好累...

***

O.O

2011-03-03T18:04:00.001+08:00

Been staring this blank page for like.... 10 minutes ?
Seriously, i trynna write something... guess i have nothing in my mind... not exactly.. but nothing that are suitable.
Why don't i just yell out ... Damn, i have not enough holiday ! Screw cyberjaya !

=[ ....

*crossed finger* waiting for my next boubuizai.

***

Shadow of my life.

2011-02-26T21:28:00.003+08:00

Noticed 2 of my old bookmarks.
well.... =[
I really have to say, the shadow is all over my life.

***

那后面的伴奏曲, 厉害钢琴的朋友.
帮帮忙好不好 ? 写下个琴谱或亲手教我 thanks ~~

***

Things are always funny when we look back.
Look at what i wrote 2 years ago :
And now i gonna take good care of my new phone =)
I bet it can't drop like my older nokia phone does. It looks kinda fragile to drop for me.

Im talking about my SE K530I , and know what ? It can handle drop just as well as a 'dai gor dai' !
Within 2 years, i guess i drop it more than maybe 50 times ? Still as ganas as when i bought it =D
Bet my next phone not gonna handle drops this well... or would say, smart phone surely can't tahan drop.

2011, let's see will i post another similar post when 2013, hahah ~

***

Pure.... posting for fun ?

2011-02-18T15:22:00.001+08:00

Been writing about my personal stuff for sometimes.
Guess i will be writing something else this time.
I bet most of the people nowadays uses google chrome. I would say .... 8 out of 10 my friends uses it.

This is the traffic of my blog for this months. As you can see, chrome makes up most of the part.
Notice the IE6.0, can't believe someone still using it though.

Google chrome might have the most users out there (among my social cycle). But i always prefer firefox. Well, i can't argue that chrome is swifter than firefox. But what matters to me is brand loyalty, haha. Firefox works fine for me, and i love it - that's why i have not been switching since firefox 1.0 =D

FYI, firefox 4.0 is releasing soon. Tried out the beta and it looks very promising. Cleaner UI ( kinda chromy feel for me ) while retaining its original touch ( yeah, firefox have its very own touch comparing to other browsers. )
Here are some screennie. Nice new homepage =]

Compared to Chrome, it still have lower resolution of browsing ( whatever the term is ).
However do notice that Chrome shrink content in windowed mode while FF4 doesn't. Well, it don't really matters, people don't browse that way. Fullscreen mode in FF4 works fine too ( as above ).

Btw, ignore my traffic counts, they sucks big time ( just ain't your another famous blog )
And.... bloggers sucks big time as well when comes to image composition ( arranging the image, why can't they enable drag and paste function ? But i know it is complicated coding wise though. ) in a post. But not switching as well... is all about brand loyalty as time goes by ....( sounds like my lecturer's tone. )

( To be continued - with some tech-related post as well )

***

新年... 我体会了什么.

2011-02-17T02:12:00.000+08:00

初十五啦, 新年的最后一天. 之前说了要说说关于自己新年的东东... 现在闲着闲着就写点点吧.
其实对我来说, 今年的新年格外有意思.
二十一岁了... 算起来, 也成年了. 虽然说在家人眼里我永远是个小孩.
从前的新年, 我都喜欢... 只是今年不一样的是, 自己有了许多感触.
我想人会成长, 或许我自己在待人处事这一方面也有了不一样的体会... 所以这一次感觉很不一样.

往常回到家, 虽然是会帮手... 但是感觉是出于自己的义务.
这一次的新年, 感觉却是打自心地的, 我想做些什么, 想要帮些什么.
觉得最有意思的.... 是自己好几天都有在厨房帮手吧.
学会了不少烹饪的知识和经验. 也不需要出奇, 我一向都对烹饪有兴趣, 很希望自己能煮些好吃的给身边重要的人物品尝.
自己严格算起来...第一次下厨也不是煮给自己吃的,我还是一样只是希望... 吃的人会开心就好了.
自己经常会设想说, 如果自己有本事煮套好吃的... 吃的人应该会很高兴的.
所以这一次的新年, 我都有呆在厨房里. 这一次回到家, 我也要继续学习.
虽然说... 或许一开始我是有个比较专属的推动力, 但也没关系. 家人也很重要.
也为未来的某某某先来些实际练习吧, 哈哈. ( 对, 没有错. 一开始的推动力就是要煮给自己的另一半品尝. 有问题吗 ? )
哈哈, 其实就连学钢琴等等都有着一样的推动力.... 也挺汗的 >.<"

家人对我来说... 意义升华了. 一家人能做在一起吃饭.. 原来真的很有意义...
爸妈也不年轻了... 大姐也嫁了, 大哥两年内也要娶了, 二姐也事业有成感情稳定了...
只剩下我, 我想爸妈最担心的是我了... 我怎能不定行呢 ?
爸常问我女朋友在哪 ? 大多数孩子都会觉得很烦. 但我知道他也一把年纪了... 他也只是担心自己的小儿子.
妈还是经常在教导我, 要我好. 我也懂... 妈也只是要我做个好孩子.
我知道.. 但我也知道我还做得不够好. 21 岁的我会更加努力... 不让他们总是为我担心.. 因为我真的懂, 担心是怎么一回事... 是很煎熬的.
身边的朋友都不会像我这样想... 在他们眼里, 我怪, 我懂.
但没关系... 我要对得起我自己.

这一次就一些写关于家人吧.
下次再写些其他的 =]

***

情人节快乐

2011-02-14T02:38:00.005+08:00

祝大家情人节快乐.
真的不懂要说些什么的.
祝天下有情人终成眷属. 祝... 你, 对对, 你... 幸福美满.

**

一步, 两步, 还差九十八步.

2011-02-08T21:47:00.005+08:00

其实我觉得 aLin 很漂亮.
虽然没那么受大众认识, 但绝对也是一名唱将.

我明白这场游戏，输得五体投地.

***

我不需要任何理由, 只因为我不需要刻意去忘记。
也不是顽强, 只是觉得消化后还是一个很值得怀念的回忆。
我想大家都听过‘最幸福的事’吧. 其实.... 当过了那天使，也很幸福了啊...
最近实在是在 youtube 听了好多好多歌曲 ( 多谢 unifi 哦. ) ... 好多感触, 但此刻我是微微笑着的, 真的很微那种... 哈哈...
虽然.... 哈哈, 那我不说.

我知道我朋友都很醒目... 说的话语全变了 ( 虽然我 matt 都没有和你们说.)
所以我想在这里说 "谢谢." 虽然说或许你们只是很惯性的避忌... 但真的也需要谢谢的.
毕竟我在赛城的依赖还只是这班朋友了.
一起和我逛, dota, 篮球, 熬夜投诉考试, 吃, 等等.
虽然我总是没玩得很尽.... 但那就是我啊.
还有.... 不要吃那么多草了啦....

好啦, 写到很明了.
我懂你们, 对, 你! 一直在猜测的. 但这就是了, 不用猜了.
我也不懂这到底代表了什么... 但此刻的感觉是这样, 觉得没必要隐瞒, 不就写啦~

一步, 两步, 还差九十八步.

***

考试....

2011-02-07T01:57:00.001+08:00

有许多的题材,但现在似乎不是一个好的时间来写些什么.
明天开始考试, 对我而言, 新年也完了, hmm.....
有答案就有, 没有就..不勉强....
祝所有 coursemate, 考试, good luck !
也祝新年快乐 !

***

我懂, 不用担心.

2011-01-31T01:50:00.001+08:00

李佳薇夺冠 !!! 很替她开心.
除了是因为我支持她之外.... 最主要是, 她的歌声能感动我.

特别是她演唱的回家和勇敢.
感动的词加上感动的声音.... 还能要求什么呢 ?
我是男生, 但是我喜欢一首歌能感动我的那瞬间.
我喜欢那瞬间的心酸, 瞬间的欲泪. 那样的感动很真切.
或许不多像我这样的男生, 大众都说这叫情绪化, 我也不想说什么.
但是, 我喜欢真性情的朋友, 真性情的自己.
我就是这样, 这么容易的动情, 感动, 落泪.
不一定是我不坚强, 只是我有一个男生少有的细腻. 少有的性情.
我也没必要去掩饰说我不是这样的自己.

我体验过什么, 我会记得. 什么事情应该感动珍惜, 我就会感动.
我就那么直接简单.
而且, 我很喜欢唱歌. 喜欢自己一个人在房里, 播放 mp3, 随着唱, 沉醉在自己的世界里.
又有多少男生敢面对这样的自己呢 ? 男生总爱把虚弱隐藏, 故做坚强.... 这没有错.

看透了吧.
有些事,

没交代的交代, 总好过没征兆 ... =] ...

我看到了, 我会懂. 你不需要担心.
或许这段时间, 我会比较虚弱.
就像现在... 自己也没什么看清楚键盘了...
写了又停... 停了又写....
但没关系.... 冥冥中只有安排.... 我还能看不透吗 ?
这一天停下的脚步并不代表说我就永远走不动了.
我深信....

哭不一定是伤心, 不一定是崩溃.
哭着, 我也笑着. 我相信雨后会有天晴.
=']
而你, 要学会惜福.... =) ...

***

namo namo

2011-01-29T03:13:00.000+08:00

Will be home in another few hours.
Well, it is good ... i wanted it as well.
However... nt really smiling now though.
Damn tired and might-less... Maybe everything don't mean anything anymore.
Maybe the choice is finally made ? Well.... i always wishes for that. Since at the very least, that would mean no more dragging... that is a good thing...
I always wanted to clear things up ... may it be dream realized or shattered.
Nya ... sounds so weak. I am though... barely opening my eyes, still haven't pack my luggage and my computer of course.
Thanks to tanzisheng.... dota whole day b4 balik wor.... *yawn* ... but i was thinking about something else whole day though...

May god bless me, if i shall be blessed.
Namo namo....

***

一个普通人

2011-01-26T20:43:00.001+08:00

一个人觉得没安全感并没有错.
一个人会有疑问也理所当然.
一个人有情绪更是没什么不托.
一个人会生气, 一个人会伤心, 一个人会担心, 也都没错.
一个人想要抓着中心也不是罪.

而我也只是一个普通人,再普通不过.

***

在面子书看到了一些短句, 觉得写得很厉害.
哈哈... 不过, 是几情绪化的. 我只是喜欢他们如何把事情联系吧.

请不要假装对我好，我很傻，会当真的。
谁的寂寞覆我华裳，谁的华裳覆我肩膀。
要有多坚强，才敢念念不忘。
你是我猜不到的不知所措，我是你想不到的无关痛痒。
看着别人的故事，流着自己的眼泪。
离开后，别说祝我幸福，你有什么资格祝我幸福？
向来缘浅，奈何情深。
彼年豆蔻，谁许谁地老天荒。
习惯难受，习惯思念，习惯等你，可是却一直没有习惯看不到你。
当你做对的时候，没有人会记得；当你做错的时候，连呼吸都是错。
有些事一转身就一辈子。
哀莫过于心不死。
我很好，不吵不闹不炫耀，不要委屈不要嘲笑，也不需要别人知道。
我是你转身就忘的路人甲，凭什么陪你蹉跎年华到天涯？
不被理解的弱小只好一直坚强。
不要依赖别人，是你还有依赖时候才说的出的。
也许走得太远的代价就是寂寞。
我在怀念，你不再怀念的。
不要仗着我对你的好向我使坏。
不要骗我，你知道即使你的谎话我都会相信。
要离开，就请，永远别再回来。
你不过是仗着我喜欢你。
他的心早已变换了季节，而你还站在他许下诺言的那一天。
想你的时候有些幸福，幸福得有些难过。
鱼上钩了，那是因为鱼爱上了渔夫，它愿用生命来博渔夫一笑。
人生最遗憾的，莫过于，轻易地放弃了不该放弃的，固执地坚持了不该坚持的
在原谅与绝望之间游荡，唯一的感觉是伤！伤！！伤！！！
思念一个人的滋味，就象是喝了一杯冰冷的水，然后一滴一滴凝成热泪。

够 emo ler ? hahahahaha.

***

Saa yukou !

2011-01-24T03:43:00.001+08:00

Since i was talking about Luffy and Ace, this opening surely tells the story.
It is unlike all the previous opening as it sounds abit .... serious type...
One piece previous opening were all energetic and cheerful.
However, i like this one a lot too.

Saa yukou
Tachidomaru koto naku
Nagareru toki ni makenai you ni
Nando mo tachi mukai tsuzukeyou
Taisetsu na mono ushinaitaku nai kara

I love the lyric too.
They mean :
So let's go
Will never stop
Won't lose against the flow of time
I'll keep getting back up
Because I don't want to lose something precious

Nice one.

***

Luffy and Ace

2011-01-22T00:07:00.007+08:00

My prayer has been answered... recovered.. thanks...
Guess i can put a hold on my worry. And start to look back into myself again.
The previous post mentioned that i might mood swing soon.
Well, something else caught my main attention and i get worried. Temporary neglecting my own feeling.
For now, i have a bad feeling that they are resurfacing though....

I really wish i am out there somewhere ... on a field, beach or somewhere...
I need some fresh air.... sigh...

Luffy and Ace.
Luffy has his nakama, and his aniki - Ace.
My brother... duh... we don't share emotional matters...
Not really to my friends too...

Sometimes i would feel so weaken... without proper reason...
Guess i'm pretty worn out after all...
Wish to hold on someone and i could cry out loud...
Yeah yeah, cry baby , emo freak .... how u named it, i will just accept it.
Guess i'm just not the kind who hold feelings back and act tough - since i ain't that tough anymore after all these time.

And to make things clear... ain't really emo here.
Perhaps i always write things that touches ? LOL... i am fine here.. just a lil bit of 感叹.
Yea i know, 文笔太好了啦~

***

问
曲：李宗盛詞：李宗盛

誰讓你心動誰讓你心痛

誰會讓你偶爾想要擁他在懷中

誰又在乎你的夢

誰說你的心思他會懂

誰為你感動

如果女人   總是等到夜深
無悔付出青春    他就會對你真
是否女人    永遠不要多問

他最好永遠天真為他所愛的人

只是女人    容易一往情深
總是為情所因    終於越陷越深
可是女人    愛是他的靈魂
她可以奉獻一生    為她所愛的人
如果女人    總是等到夜深
無悔付出青春    他就會對你真
只是女人    容易一往情深
總是為情所因    終於越陷越深
可是女人愛是他的靈魂
她可以奉獻一生    為她所愛的人

虽然歌词写得是女生. 我倒觉得, 男女都适合.
很简单的词, 然而简直有力.
虽然好像不够时髦...
不过狠狠唱出心声, 这才叫写词.
不像有些歌... 像那些飞轮*唱的...
垃圾词... 而且连唱功都不及格... =.=

***

漫步向前走去....

2011-01-19T02:54:00.000+08:00

不小心的... 看见了些东西...
没感动是骗人的.....
那份既单纯既无私的.... 我只能说... 我懂得那背后的感受...
尾随我不是件明智的选择... 只会带你走入更残酷的死角....
自己也在走着一条充满未知数的路.... 我哪有能耐扶人一把呢....

然而, 你让我更加看清自己...
说穿了, 我和你都是同样的一种人...
做着一样事情...
有多少感叹感触.. 也只有自己懂.

但求无悔.... 又有多少人办得到呢...
或许连自己也开始迷失了...
掏得越多, 越是空虚, 越是空虚, 越是苛求.
几番煎熬后, 又有多少人有能耐在掏空后继续说 "但求无悔" 呢 ?

*继续漫步向前走去....*

***

空乏狂想症

2011-01-17T23:54:00.000+08:00

当以上这些情绪在一个小时内轮流转了一次.
我把它称为 "空乏狂想症."
好像很复杂... 不过其实很平常啦....
以我的经验, 是我开始 down 时前两天的征兆.
笑着听一首歌 ( 第一轮 ) , 空空听第二轮, down 着听第三轮.... 其实也几平常的.
现在刚好是最后一个 emoticon , 在 nya nya >.< 着.
久久一次, 很平常, 很平常 ~! ......

***

爱上了 '一半'

2011-01-14T15:30:00.001+08:00

爱上了 '一半'.
爱上了那钢琴的旋律.

一半
唱：丁噹
曲：宇珩詞：管啟源　製作人：鍾成虎

喝酒的伴一起看電影的伴
早餐晚餐的那個伴
朋友不能留得太晚明天要上班

唱K的伴一起去旅行的伴
聽懂我的笑話的伴
我的生活只差那個人就美滿

快樂剩一人分享快樂就只剩一半
喝一碗湯心怎麼都不夠暖
這張被單這張睡床
再舒服都覺得太寬

沒人分享幸福就只剩一半
就算把日子都填滿
節日卻提醒我孤單

沒有想法有想法又能怎樣
只能寫部落格整晚
幾個留言安慰不了心裡的遺憾

沒有負擔原來也是種負擔
自由多得讓人心慌
你羨慕我那要不要跟我交換

快樂剩一人分享快樂就只剩一半
喝一碗湯心怎麼都不夠暖
這張被單這張睡床
再舒服都覺得太寬

沒人分享幸福就只剩一半
努力把日子都填滿
別來提醒我的孤單

****

MMU没有 ADDMATH !

2011-01-11T02:02:00.005+08:00

突然间很想写些什么什么的.
却发现.... 我既然没什么好写....
现在的心情就像是做在夜晚的沙滩上...
但少了海风的爽快.

看着那 accounting 的 note... 才想起自己有多么怕数学.
昨晚发了个梦, 花洒下许多回忆就像画面般一幕一幕得闪过.
才记得原来我也感动过, 也轻狂过, 也经历过.
但是也很快得, 笑一笑后告诉自己说 '都过去了, 想想就好.'
未来看不清, 现在抓不着, 过去了的笑着记得就好.
数学又和这些有什么关系呢 ? 没什么啦, 认识我的都懂... 数学我她妈的又怕又讨厌.
中学的 addmath 自然也成为了我不忘的回忆之一, 哈哈.
只是联想到的而已.
告诉大家一件趣事吧. 有时侯会恶梦惊醒, 不一定是梦见什么鬼怪.... 而是梦见我在做数学题 !
哈哈~ 搞笑吧 ?
也总是在醒后不断安慰自己说, MMU没有 ADDMATH !　哈哈!!

不久前也发了个美梦, 详情当然不能说.
但是让我看见了98 这两个字.
不以为然的我, 在数天前才发现原来　9-8-09 ( 日期　) 是有意义的.
是刚巧吗 ? 不知道, 我不会知道.

***

韵味不错．

拥抱拥抱受了伤
却忍住不哭的你
恨不得替你痛     舍不得却为你光荣
拥抱     也拥抱再苦
都还是微笑的我
在春雨里相拥   不管幸福来了没有

会盼能一齐笑, 一齐哭.
到不了却会珍惜自己仅有的.
微笑未必是打从心底的.
所做所为不加计算, 因为已经不管幸福是不是来了没有.

有唱出少许心声.... 当然这词每个人可以有不同的看法和领会.
不管怎样, 我觉得这歌的尾部挑战性很高, 能飙高音的朋友一定会喜欢.

***

=|

2011-01-08T03:37:00.002+08:00

有时侯, 心情郁闷时... 可以是低落, 也可以是提不起劲.
但不管怎样, 自己总有义务去好好处理自己的情绪.
所以现在我选择睡觉. 希望明天会好点.

***

3 of my favorite One piece opening.
Kinda miss the time how they used to lighten my days up.

***

phew...

2011-01-06T16:55:00.002+08:00

终于渡过了星期三的 crit... 感觉实在好很多.
也比想象中的好, 够了.
现在只想好好休息回本.

我想一个人活在世上, 不开心的事情一定很多.
人生不如意十之八九, 其实也有道理.
有些人可以在这样的情况下开开心心, 有些人却办不到.
我想最大的分别并不在于每个人所遭遇的事情, 而是每个人选择面对的心态.
没什么, 说些废话而已.
Diam diam 就好, 沉默就好.

***

Been using my new gear for a week now.
Getting used to the typing feedback and flow, it sure feel just right.
Been able to use the macro as well, though kinda sluggish sometimes.
However, the keyboard hand rest is really a problem as reviewed by most people.
The 1st time I am using it, it annoys.
After 1 week, although getting more used to it. It still feel annoyed sometimes.
However instead blaming in on the hand rest, i guess the problem comes from my small keyboard platform as well.
Other than this, I am kinda satisfied with this one, Sidewinder X4.

And this is real sweet when the light is switched off.

***

等收尸 !

2011-01-04T02:57:00.000+08:00

双脚痛到要命,腰子麻到要命.
脑子乱到取命, 眼睛酸到取命.

想要些支持, 却知道我不能那么自私.
但是一旦停下来小休, 脑袋自然想起.
又甜又苦的, 百般滋味.
在这祝福 MI 的 coursemate 吧.
我可以放弃吗 ? >.<.... T____T

等收尸 !

***

2010

2011-01-01T23:32:00.000+08:00

As i said, gonna be writing a post as a conclusion for 2010, although it is 2011 now... but i guess that's fine.
At 1st, i wanna write this in chinese. However this keyboard im using now.... with the adding of a macro column... i mess up my typing a lot... writing chinese just get harder... lame reason right ? I gonna need some time to accustomed myself with my new gear.

Okok, back to the topic.
What should i start with ?

Lets start with my life in MMU.
Gamma year.... It sure is hard, it sure is annoying. Well, i find academic stuff to be annoying ever since i am a kid... common, right ? Hahaha.
I will never forget how my parents used to tell me this :"YUN ! You are not dumb, somehow even smart ! But you are damn lazy ! Thats why you are always degrading !"
Well, somehow i admit.... is really hard for me to focus on something that i have no interest in.
So my 2010 academic life ? Thats all la.... hahahaha ! Really have nothing to talk about it.

My family ?
My eldest sis finally registered as wife and husband with her laogong. And doing fine with her job as an international school's teacher.
My 2nd sis changed a job in mid year and it seems to be even more promising than before.
My bro ? Seriously.... i have known ntg much from him... The latest news i get from him ? Is that he have changed his phone to Samsung Galaxy S. Lame right.... ? But is common as well, for those who thinks i'm somehow cool or diam.... he is 10 times worse than me =D
My mom and dad, they are in Kuantan. I really wish to be with them whenever i can. I just wish they can stay healthy all the time. With loves, blessing them. And of course to my fellow siblings as well.
I will always remember their teaching and sayings.

-Not to lose myself no matter what.
-Learn how to appreciate small things and accept the unlucky happening.
-Don't look too high into the sky as you can't even grasp an idea what's happening in front you when you do that.
-Be humble be calm, no ones respect a person with too much ego and no wisdom.
-Don't take things as granted, is not their job to treat me nice.

And there are tons of them to list out.

Ok, next. MMU Friends ?
I guess nothing much changes. Still that imba, still that crazy at times, still that funny most the times.
We might not be the most welcomed group in my campus, and some even scare of some of us.... don't know why as well. But I am sure we are 1 group with no inner conflict =]
And for those who have been giving me a helping hand and mental support, for example my gang, kak, bc, banana, and so on. Thanks again ! I really do appreciate.
My hometown friends ?
Still don't contact much with them in the past 2010. Just met some of them some when in the middle of the year. And everyone is having their own life, their own social circle now.... guess, that is something that can be hardly avoided.

Myself ?
As usual, more injuries in 2010 as well. Slipped disc and sciatica ?
Damn, they hurts like hell when they just wanna mess you up.
Never really gained any weight.... again as well...
Nothing much changes.... i guess...

Ok... families, friends, academic... now what ?
Hmmm.... guess i should really skip this 1, hahaha.
Cause i am pretty sure that those who are supposed to know, they know well enough.
And this is not something to be written on a public post. Sorry~ haha.

2011 wishes and resolution ?
Resolution ? I have almost all the same resolution all these time. Just 1 simple 1, to be a better being.
Wishes ? I always have lotsa wishes every time. But for major one... I will stick with the old one : I wishes that those who are around me, who are dearest to me will live happily and healthily.
Well... besides this, I have been making another wish for quite some time. Made that wish in the new year of 2010 and i am making it again for 2011. It is a wish that i put my faith and heart into it. May god bless me if it is a wish that are supposed to be realized.

I guess that pretty much conclude things up.
Well, my life is not that dramatic to have tons to write about.
Thanks for reading. Happy new year and may you have a smooth year onward =)

***

Sidewinder

2010-12-29T04:05:00.002+08:00

Should I get this Sidewinder X4 ?
Since I am using a Sidewinder X3 mouse... this could really make up the family... xD
I shall consider.

Besides.... CM storm Inferno is kinda appealing to me as well.
But should i really invest on another mice ?
I remember myself saying : " Don't waste money." just few weeks ago >.<

***

流沙

2010-12-25T01:12:00.002+08:00

圣诞节快乐 !
但其实并没有很喜欢这些节日.
更是最讨厌自己的生日, 哈哈 !

认了吧.
自以为自己可以很冷酷, 却还是在卸下来后, 选择微笑.
自以为自己可以很中立, 却还是在阵摇摆后, 左晃右摆.
可笑自己与人说 '我好多了啦 !'
虽然话是实话, 但此时此刻自己却在质疑自己... '是真的吗 ?'
我真的觉得自己办得到... 但看来我自己对自己的猜测似乎也错了.
流沙般, 我再一次捉不定自己.
流沙般, 我再一次洒下了自己.

***

xmas again ?

2010-12-24T02:41:00.003+08:00

All i ever wanted for xmas is ...
The exactly same thing i wish for all the time~

I seriously love to hug whenever I am slightly weaken...
Thanks to 1 of my housemate who used to hug with me... haha.
But not anymore >.<
I can only hug my loupozai pillow x*a*** now.... =|

Merry xmas to all of you~
To myself as well.... =|

***

也 ok

2010-12-21T00:04:00.004+08:00

无戒心地把防卫放下....
卸下的装甲却压伤了脚指头.

也 ok... 再拿起来就好了.
也 ok... 还是会向前走去.

***

***

有时侯... 不对, 是很多时候.
会想要有那么一个人能够明白自己, 懂得自己.
知道自己身上哪儿有久患, 什么时候会发作, 懂得问寒问暖.
知道自己不那么开心时, 什么时候会低沉, 懂得给我个小鬼脸.
知道自己有难时,　什么时候需要支持时,　懂得在自己背后撑一撑．
知道自己开心时,　什么时候会微笑,　懂得牵着小手一起分享．
一样的事情, 我办得到.
但或许我无福消受... 认了吧, 我不配.
EMO吗 ? 还好, 此时此刻久患正发作, 有点感触而已．

***

BaliaZai

2010-12-16T16:35:00.005+08:00

Last week was my mid-term break.
Spend the 1st few days at penang with some of my friends.... details ? Lazy la...
Then i drive back to Kuantan... tiring me out like hell.
Spent sometimes on assignment back at Kuantan ( miracle .... ), and it certainly spoilt my holiday mood.
As usual, i spend time on piano everytime im back at Kuantan. This time was a lot more fun cause my sis was there to guide me =D
Everyone in my family is talking about my eldest sister marriage banquet which is coming soon.
Spent some time following my sis to get her 嫁妆, i would have to say ... there is a lot of knowledge behind a marriage... Lots to prepare., lots to consider.
But my sis didn't find it to be that hard, she is one smart girl after all.

The day just before i leave for Cyber, went to visit my BiuJie who just gave born to little baby.
Little boy is so tiny and looks fragile. Well, he is just few days old and my mom said it is very normal. So, i guess i have nothing to worry about.
Another things that grab my attention is this :

An Audi TT park at my BiuJie's compound. Audi TT, 1 of the sports car out there.
It is not the most luxurious one out there, but pricing at RM300K+ .... it is luxurious enough.
When i climb into the car, i don't actually feel right....
For those who know me, i am not a shortie.
But look at the photo above... the car is so low that i can't even see things well with my height.
And the pedals ? It is not like any normal car out there, it actually features a "Arcade style Initial-D" pedals. ( Maybe there are a lots of car which features that, but so far this is my 1st one for real... )
Besides, the pedals is so smooth that i can step the pedals to the bottom with so much ease.
My nike slippers looks balia to press on the pedals also >.<
And yeap... I am Balia la, no drive sports car before la. I wonder will i even get the chances to step into a Lambo, ferrari, porsche and etc etc....
But at least, Audi TT is in my checked list xD

On the way back to Cyber, 2 of my sisters come along.
Sings a lot in the car like usual, duet a lot as usual, going for high pitch as usual.
Out of the sudden, my eldest sis ask mayb we 3 could sing a live band performance at the banquet.
Well... it really gets me O.0 .... but i might think about it....
Promised my eldest sis to work on the AE photo presentation as well... but i wonder if i can really handle it well...
On the other hand, second sis promised to create a cartoon flash animation for my eldest sis. It is going to be an animation telling the story of my sis and my jiefu.
All this is going to be hidden from my jiefu, so i am sure he will be surprised on that day =D
Funny is how my eldest sis say : " 哈哈, 弟弟妹妹都读多媒体, 几好啊~ "
>.<"
Even discussed that we should request my brother to propose to his GF on the day... with us performing song on the stage....
Well, nice idea... but i am sure that my brother will not agree with it =.="

***

Thursday night, finally i get through this week safely.
I could really get to have some proper rest, since assignment is finally falling behind for a while.
Is been long that i do any sports too... should really get some this weekend.

What else to talk about ?
Hmm... hah, i know what you guys are waiting for.
But i guess i have nothing much to say. So.... keep it for next time =)

Been listening to Far east movement - Free wired album lately.
I have to say they are pretty good.
Go Ape FTW.

***

http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=179228628769749&id=142393239107816
For those who are in a relationship =)

***

身与心

2010-12-08T22:04:00.002+08:00

我妈有收集星洲日报 - 活力副刊的习惯.
和往常一样, 回到家我都会翻阅这些副刊.
因为本身觉得里头写的都会有意思, 是该知道的学问.
也多亏今天我花了时间去翻阅这些妈妈收下来的副刊, 总算我有概念自己是患上了 "腰椎间盘突出" , Intervertebral disc prolapse aka slip disc.
我不能肯定, 但应该没错了.
毕竟许多症状都有了....
打喷涕会非常疼痛, 双脚后部会异常酸累, 身体下半部会疼痛.
基本上所有症状都有了.

我想大家都不懂我在说些什么吧.
基本上这情况是 "脊骨和神经线之间的隔绝已经消耗, 而当脊骨压在神经线后时会产生疼痛."

其实是属于年龄病, 常发生在年长的长辈们身上.
不过当然过渡操劳, 跌伤, 等等都会造成这样的情况.
若我回想, 也绝对合理... 毕竟在参加跆拳道的那段期间... 确实经常摔倒什么的.

如果想根治这情况, 打针和手术是最彻底的方法. 不过这是在很严重的情况之下才考虑的.
可笑的是经过资料收集... 其实我就曾经很严重过... ( 经常逃课, 坐立不行, 喷涕会痛到流泪的那段时间. )
幸好情况并没恶化.... phew...
而情况比较良好的, 可以选择在家里自行治疗.
也就是做适当的物理治疗, 不能不运动 - 因为不运动会让肌肉僵硬 - 增加疼痛 ( 这点我就赞同. 因为有打球的日子确实没什么疼痛... 现在放假却慢慢发作了. )
当然这也有个极限, 不是每一种运动都可以. 比如说举重, 攀山等需要许多腰部弯曲的运动就不行了. 那是物极必反了.按摩也有帮助, 而谢绝运动则会让情况恶化. 其实很多运动的伤都是这样, 你必须小心, 但不能完全停止. 我就是个例子了, 因为之前没做到适度的运动和治疗, 大腿就积血了.

如果在读着的你有类似的问题, 记得要注意了.
运动是件很享受的事情, 但是也千万要小心.
不要像我, 经常就只是草草熱身... 所以伤痛特别多.

***

也在副刊里, 读了许多少女未婚怀孕的话题.
这当然不是非常普遍的现象, 但是少不代表没有.
也就是因为大众对类似情况的认识实在太少了, 所以少女未婚怀孕总被大家归类为肮脏, 无知.
当然, 我也认同说是不应该的. 但是与其鄙视她们, 我倒觉得她们反倒是应该受保护的.
许多情况就是因为害怕鄙视的眼光, 害怕父母的责怪, 少女们都决定把孩子打了.
以为事情就解决了 ? 其实不然.
因为违法打胎随时会影响女生未来的生育能力, 也会让女生从此觉得自己不干净了等等.
而这下反倒会误了一个女生的未来.... 许多情况下, 很多家庭或情侣的分裂其实就来于女方自己隐藏下来的创伤.
当然如果情况是说... 女性遭强奸而怀下了孩子... 我会觉得不该生下孩子.. 因为许多这样的情况下母亲会对孩子又爱又恨, 造成更多更多的问题, 如虐待等等.

所以我觉得在这样的情况下, 父母需要做的是支持孩子, 而不是想着自己的面子. 毕竟面子重要还是女儿的未来重要 ?
如果没经济能力或情况不允许, 就把生下的婴儿让其他人领养. 总好过让自己的女儿从此抬不起头面对世界.
当然做为少女伴侣的男生也要如此, 给予该有的责任与关心. 而不是逃避事实或者推卸责任.

----

也有一些情况是女生之前发生过类似的情况, 所以对现任的感情毫无安全感.
在这样的情况时, 做为男生的则不能去计较这些. 毕竟过去是过去, 喜欢的是现在的她而不是从前的她.
做为女生也不能只为自己加上枷锁, 否则永远走不出那阴影, 一辈子的幸福就毁了.
这说法也不限于这情况, 许多其他的情况也是需要这样的想法.
不能只活在自己缩影下, 过去再如何伤, 如何痛... 也不应该就抹杀了一个人去张望未来的权力.

当然我知道我所说的对许多人来说都非常困难.
要一个男子放下面子, 要一个女生面对恐惧.... 听起来那么的苦难.
但是我想在这里说 : "把这些和自己的未来比较吧... 所谓的执着在数年后再次回首, 永远都是幼稚和可笑的. 那何苦要让自己就困在其中呢 ? "

***

Yossh ! Tadayima !

2010-12-06T19:07:00.000+08:00

There are of course some funny things in this trip. But right now... i don't really have the mood for it.
But it was a good trip, especially when it comes to i gained some weight ! xD
Spent some .... ermm... my purse hurt... my ATM card more hurt..
But, i guess it is worthwhile =)

These few days, I personally think Dailou said the best quotation during the 1st morning in the hotel:
Ni dit meh lan sang wut o, gam lan tan geh ?! ( Cantonese, which mean 'what kind of *** life is this ? So *** enjoy ?! ) .... And I have to agree ... xD
But I am sure they enjoy that moment more as they 'chew' some 'grass' xD
A lot of interesting things happen... but I love this 1 more :
Successfully made 2 wishes when it comes to 'blissful marriage' and 'health' in the temple.
You might don't get it , but it is like I will have to throw some coin into a moving vases from afar to make those wishes.
Health and blissful marriage... haha... might sounds lame comparing to other aspects like fortune, but these 2 means a lot to me =)
Too bad i couldn't score the 'happiness' 1.
However since it is just like some 'mental comfort' for me, so nevermind lah~
I bought nothing this time, since it is more into 'jom visit and jom makan' for this trip. Which is good for my purse actually.

Ohya, and I am having a break right now. Heading back to Kuantan tomorrow, 7AM and drive .... it makes me yawn just to think about it.
Assignments are waiting ... stress is there... but nvm la, won't stop me from sleeping this time =D
Plus, I guess I am pretty lucky with 'refine'. Since there won't be excellent from those lecturer, it is either redo or refine... So refine works fine with me.

So, thats all for now, a short post at my sister place.

***

主人, 猫咪和鱼儿.

2010-11-28T21:06:00.002+08:00

我记得小学的周老师曾这样说过 :
一只小猫看见主人给它鱼, 它会向主人走来.
如果主人在这时候打了它一掌, 猫会逃跑.
但是如果主人再一次拿条鱼儿出来, 猫儿还是会走向前去, 似乎就忘了刚刚才中了一掌.
结果又再次受了一把掌.

当然我不记得当时老师是要说些什么.
没错的话, 老师的补习都会有段时间是用来说故事的.
应该就是那时候听到的吧.

我想当时我应该在想 "这怎么可能呢 ? 猫儿就那么傻吗 ?"
但是现在我想... 其实猫儿并没做错啊.
毕竟是它的主人啊, 况且猫儿可能就真的饿坏了啊.

你们觉得呢 ?
人活在世上, 又有多少时间是在扮演小猫咪的角色呢 ?
也有可能不是每个人能体会猫咪的感受.
我想这世上, 一些人就是猫咪, 一些人就是主人, 一些人就是鱼儿了.
明白 ? 不明白 ? 是与否也没关系.
记着有这样的一个小故事就好了.

***

淡 * 韵味

2010-11-21T14:38:00.001+08:00

最近都很喜欢类似韵味的歌曲.
感觉有点懒懒的... 记得以前不太喜欢.
但是我想那时没感触吧...
现在觉得... 很贴心...
淡淡的感触有时候比歇斯底里来的更有意思.

这一类也不错.
同样有点懒懒的... 不过多了一份放任的感觉.
歌词也简洁有力.

***

保持就好.

2010-11-17T02:12:00.001+08:00

我告诉自己要中立, 不要随意就遭影响.
要知道, 很多事情是与否不由得我来管, 不要再钻牛角尖了.
我只希望我真的能办到.
不能让自己太低沉... 因为不是所有人都有本事把我扶起来, 扶得起的也未必就想那样做.
唯有自己先打救自己.
我现在也ok =)
保持就好.

***

还要大家一起出来玩还是运动, 也不要随意发脾气嘛.
只是一场游戏啊....

***

天秤座真爱的门槛：魅力无边

天秤座不会狂热地追求你，他会把你写进小说里。他不会恶意的挑逗你，他会说乐意为您效劳。他表现的不是非常的积极，除非你对他很确定。他的爱情稳扎稳打，稳定平衡，是他的原则. 不是每个天秤座的男人都爱猫，不是每个天秤座的女人都热衷动漫，但是他们大多数人都有着艺术天赋，并且愿意无偿的对你提供帮助，只要你对他们是真诚的好。
人家说借人钱，不借道。但是他们是少数的，愿意教你很多东西，并且无论你的是恋人、情人、朋友都会对你温柔的少数人种。他们并不是没有自己的好恶，不过贵在能忍。只是忍有限度，一旦，爆发，他们决不回头。
跟天秤座人恋爱总是徜徉在一种轻松愉快的气氛中，他不会让你觉得尴尬，他对于突发事件落落大方，在他看来，有共同的兴趣爱好比性的吸引更加重要。
跟天秤座在一起，你会发现他有很多朋友，你可以保证不吃他朋友的醋嘛？

转贴的, 你们觉得呢 ?
很准吧. 是天秤的一定明白.

***

给自己.

2010-11-13T23:03:00.001+08:00

Ok....
够了, 真的够了.
此刻我在这里写下这两个字.
不是在告诉什么, 只是要警惕我自己.

一个人可以有资格向我要求任何事情, 有资格独霸我的所有.
甚至有资格九取一还.
却没资格只取不还 !

也知道该怎么做.
不喜不乐, 不悲不哀.
我做回最自然的我自己.

**

Crap... don't read this. If u read,dun complain =.=

2010-11-09T21:55:00.001+08:00

1 friend told me this 1 month ago : 运，发现伱对人对事都很冷淡，我不喜欢。
How do i reply ? I laughed and say i am not.
1 month after, which is now..
I hafta say... maybe she really knows me well ....
I wouldnt disagree anymore with what she said now....
I have no passion in anything and almost everything now.
Dull can be use to explain what i feel almost all the time.

Asking why ? Maybe i do know....
But i really don't want that to be the reason...
It is not suppose to work this way .... maybe they are related in a way....
But arghhh.... wouldn't the side effect to be a lil bit too wide spread ?
I mean... and i know it shouldn't influence other things...
Yet... i can't deny with that feeling now....

I know i am the slacking type... but it is really more than slacking now...
Is more onto mental and mindset.....
DUH ! I hate this... i hate myself.
I don't hate the reason, but i hate myself for being affected by it.
It really remind me of the time when i was at form4.... arghh... i hate that period.
What sucks is... i have to say they are caused by similar reason .... arrr !
What even sucks is... i don't climb back up myself that time.
And the most suck of it is.... lucky don't strike twice.... especially i have like zero luck in this thing.
Is like even the 'slow down and think for alternate plan' got crushed....
But nah... that doesn't matter. Thanks god for i never initiate the 'plan' ..... =.=

Current energy level ? 30 out of 100 ....
Energy source ? Depleted.....
Stocked energy ? Depleting...
Emergency plan ? NULL.

***

Kelian dao ~

2010-11-04T15:49:00.001+08:00

Pity dao, guess where am i now ?
I am at campus's lab.... just to update my blog.
FYI, i might end up not able to online for a long time ....
Screw that TM for ' no more port for u all la... i know i know, is an address transfer so we should reserve the port... but the thing is ... there is really no port... and nothing we can do about the internet fees...'
Brilliant right ? I bet they are in the hall of fame of jerk.

Is the 3rd week of the new sem... so far.... dull as always. Ntg much to talk about.
About myself ? I hurt my lower back so badly... that i used to lye on bed almost all the time for almost 1 week.
But thanks god for i am now 80% recovered for normal life.... sports ? I guess i still need some time for it.
Why ? Ok... it all starts up months ago during taekwondo, which was minor. And it worsen when i play basketball so much ... perhaps ? Thats the only possible reason i can think of for now.
Even went for chinese traditional treatment for it, i guess it really helps alot. A painful but memorable experience. Done some acrupuncture, hot cup treatment, massage and release some of my dirty blood.

For now, i really want to get well asap. Knowing only when i am playing sport, i can set myself free.
Just like how bboying used to meant to me, a way to set myself free.
I am glad to have found this way to attain that, but i really have to rest for sometimes before i can even do some sports.
Maybe some of you guys know how much 'set myself free' meant to me. If you do, i really need your guys blessing so i can recover soon.

And for 1 of my friend, i know you might be blaming me ' mana pigi sei yun ni ? takdak online 1 ? mau put aeroplane ??!'
The truth is stated above... i can't help it... and i have no intention of putting aeroplane.
You know my phone number, helo.... texting and phoning is cheap la wey !

And for myself, i wanna say 'gambateh !'
Is just the expected coming to it, curtain closing down and thats all.
When the curtain falls, an 'artist' walk back to the backstage, exit the hall and get ready for the next showcase. Sober or recall all the mistake done on stage, and swear for a better performance next stop.
While at the same time, hoping that the 'audience' enjoys the show and wishing them the best after the show.
Kinda methaphoric, but smart guys or those close to me will find this to be simply direct as well =)

I won't know when the next post will be popping up, but for now... at least this blog is not half dead yet.
And i might return to my hometown tomolo as well =)

***

I always am =D

***

asasda

2010-10-15T16:48:00.003+08:00

A post will be coming up real soon =)
Ok, maybe not real soon....
Lose that kind of mood...

***

Going back to Cyberjaya real soon too.
Gonna 'puff' from internet world for sometimes... curse that TM .... zzzzz
I will miss msn, fb, blogspot, twitter, plurk, youtube... etc etc... banyak also.
But i will miss my home more.... =|

***

Hate it or love it.

2010-10-14T00:53:00.005+08:00

Is over... i mean my birthday.
Yea... just like how i expect it to be. But never reaching what i hope to be.... kinda stabs..
However it is ok, since i expected this.
1st of all, thanks for all the wishes ! Hundreds of them, and i really appreciate those who really meant what they said. Knowing most of them are actually just random 'Hey, maybe i should wish him since it is his bday, and fb said it !'
For those who contact me through phone, i appreciate them even more. This prove u really remember.
It is really not much of them, but thanks !
I favor hearts more than quantity.
For 1 day, i tell myself i must smile. I did my best, and really thanks to my ChunJun sis, for coming back to Kuantan just for this particular day. With loves, thanks !

For whole of my life, there aren't much birthday that i really enjoy with.
Perhaps, there are 1, thanks for someone who made it possible back then.
I am not being extreme, just that it is truth.
My family just wont throw up a party for me, when i was small. And being a kid, i envy my friends so so much. However those are history, it don't mean a thing for me now.
When i slightly grow up, on secondary, they are friends who would celebrate for me. But 13th October is always the end year exam period, so i can't really enjoy it.
Talking about MMU, every 13th of October is semester break. And every semester break, i will be at this place, Kuantan. A place where i have no single friends, since i move here after my secondary and i come straight to MMU after that. Fated perhaps ? Who knows, but it don't really matters. Maybe someday, somehow, all this will change.
Dull ? Down ? Negative ? Think and judge however u like. I am used to being claimed as EMO after all.
No matter how u said it, i am just being truthful to my life, to my thoughts, to my soul.
I might be tired of being down myself, but i hate it even more having to fake myself - so that i look real cheerful.
I am not asking everyone to understand my position, since i can't do the same for every of my friends as well.
But i really appreciate those who just stand by me all these time. For those who really know me, you will know that sometimes i just prefer someone to be by my side, speaking nothing.
Sometimes i just don't feel like talking, sometimes i just find that a silent accompany is real comfortable.
A session of swing at playground, a session of beach breeze, a session of hill-top sitting, a session of lying on grasses... sometimes all these is what i prefer.
Perhaps none of my cyberjaya's friend knew this, i like all these since i was a kid.
However.... for some reason, i am trying to have this changed, i am trying to be a lil bit more talkative, i am trying to speak all out, i am trying to try ...
But i know... i am disappointing...
And for majority, this is what they claimed as EMO.
Maybe it is, if yes, then just let me be an EMO.
I prefer to be called an EMO rather than i calling myself a faker.
However, despite all these ' EMO'. I personally think i never goes beyond the line, i treat my friends as friend, i treat my family as family, emotion just won't affect what it shudn't be affecting... at least i try my best to not let it.

Ok, enough of this EMO topic. I am just trying to make things clear. Get it or not, i can't control you.
You get my words, to remember or to recycle, is all on you.

Lastly, again... thanks for all the blessing, all the words !
With loves, i wish you guys and girls all da best too ! This goes to my family members too.
Being 20 now, i am proud of being one. Haha... used to remember how i wanted to grow up when i was small.
Thinking of wanted to lead my own life, my own family, being a proper guy, a proper family member.
Yea... no 1 actually dream of all these when they are small, especially boys.
Maybe i am real weird, maybe i am all messed up, maybe i am a freak...
However u call it ... this is LIN YI YUN 林宜运.
Hate it or love it, choose yourself =)

***

Having no expectation, but it still turns out to be disappointing.
Backfires by my own hope ? Perhaps...to expect and to hope are 2 very different things.

**

...

2010-10-13T01:03:00.001+08:00

For myself.

***

Eh eh eh eh eh ~

2010-10-11T13:19:00.012+08:00

T.T sudah ....

-----------------------

This is not something new. 'I don't care' from 2NE1.
I like the song itself.... or maybe i should say i like the 'eh eh eh eh eh ~'
Hahaha, that is 1 of the reason.
But i wonder if they could make a version of just switching the girl to boy, and the boy to girl, hahaha.
Don't really recognize them, but after some research.
Found out the short hair girl is Kone Minji.... she seriously have some weird appearance in this video.....
Don't favor it ><
But Park bom and Sandara Park is ok, hahaha ~ ( talking about my cup of tea )
After singing a few times of 'I don't care, eh eh eh eh eh ~'.... i found that.... 'i still care, eh eh eh eh eh ~ i still care, eh eh eh eh eh ~' ! LOL !
Eh eh eh eh eh ~ well... remember that it used to mean something as well... i wish it could remain ... but i just can't control it... So just let me 'eh eh eh eh eh' for another few more times.

Yea, this is absolutely not a serious post or something meant for the readers.
=x

Talking about 2NE1, this is 1 of their recent video.
Can't deny that they live up to their reputation, being 1 of the most aggressive girl's group out there in Asia.
And the hair color is something ! Hoodies is cool too, haha.
Besides, don't really know 2NE1 stands for 'To Anyone' until i watch this.

Here they come with 'eh eh eh eh eh eh eh, 2NE1' again.
They sure like ' eh eh eh eh eh' huh....
I like this 'eh eh eh eh eh' also, haha !

***

How's Malaysian's bboy scene ?

2010-10-09T15:45:00.006+08:00

A showcase by Famous Crew in the recent event, Battle of the year 2010 Malaysia.
This was the best showcase of the event.
Just posting up to show hows Malaysian bboy scene is going on.
I wouldn't say they are real good, since most of their move are not clean.
However, i do give them a thumbs up for the routines and nicely composed tracks.
I personally think that is the reason they won the best showcase title.
The hype never really goes down, and it build up pretty good as well. And this is very important for a bboy showcase, you don't make the audiences feel dull.
If they are able to perform the routine cleaner, that would be a lot better.
My favorite part would be the 'shots' part, 'shots shots shots shots shots! ' plus babymill ? Just nice.
But they should have make it longer, like maybe 1st set is babymill, 2nd set is elbow track or something.
1 set of babymill is kinda DUH for me... perhaps the bboy himself is not up to that...
Since i know pretty well, just babymill is pretty impressive.
( But he execute it just fine, should have just prolong it .... 2 more sets of babymill will make things so much better. You can see how much the crowd love it, with just 1 set of babymill. )
The overall ending is pretty dope too. The track just before 'shots' ( I don't know the name. ), the bboys have some clean routine there. Continue with babymill + shots, which push up the hype. End with 'bboy king fever'( made famous by TIP crew from Korea ), which is a very famous track in breakbeat genre. Just nice i would say. Besides, thumbs up for their footwork and uprocking !

Well, just a short post of what i used to love.
I can't dance anymore, but my bboy sense is still there, so i thought i could put this up.

***

Some not so accurate description for those who have no idea.

Routine : A set of move which are planned beforehand. Could be solo routine, or team routine.
Babymill : A variance of mill. A move which emphasize on hopping with your back while maintaining the flow from windmill.
Elbow track : A variance of track or flare. Emphasize on hopping with elbow while maintaining the flow of an airflare or airtrack.
Footwork : A.k.a downrock. Moves that are done with palms on floor and legs moving on floor.
Uprocking : Basically the dancing part of bboying. Uprock means you rock on top, which also explain downrock/footwork.

***

BAI GA ZAI ?

2010-10-08T12:36:00.007+08:00

Went back to KT ( Kuala Terengganu, not Kota Tinggi. ) 2 days ago.
Couldn't get to meet those who i want to meet, after all i am just following
my dad.
Changes here and there like usual.
Building all sort of unnecessary facilities like usual.
Like this 1 :

Is an electronic parking .... I don't know the term exactly.
But i know is a system which you park in your car, it elevate your car up.
Basically saving spaces.
Sure it does have advantages, but the thing is.... K.T is not that developed like major cities of Malaysia.
Is this even necessary ? I bet it sure costs a lot, worth the money ?
Well, maybe this is something that they think a 'bandar raya' should have ?

FYI :
Majlis Perbandaran: Having more than 100,000 residents, annual income of RM5 million to RM20 million.
Majlis Bandaraya: Having more than 100,000 residents, annual income of more than RM20 million.
And not every single city in Malaysia is bandar raya.

Despite the worthiness , i personally think it is kinda cool. Well, it is rare in Malaysia.
The truth is, it is the 1st 1 i saw in my life. My sis said there are some in KL, but i just haven't seen them before.
So, this thing kinda make me goes o.0 for a while.

------------------------------------------

Saw this car in Kuala Terengganu as well, AUDI TT.
This is suppose to be nothing so special since AUDI is so common nowadays.
Just like you can find BMW 5 series almost anywhere in the street, but of course it is still rather rare for AUDI TT.
Besides, AUDI TT is not even the most luxurious car in K.T. There are some R35, Lamborghini and etc out there as well.
Ok, maybe i should get to the point. What is so special about this car that i saw is ....
It is stick with this :

Which suggest that it is a car owned by a youngster, even younger than me.
Heard from a friend that it is owned by some 'siu ye zai'.

You might wanna look at this, in case you don't really know about car's value.
Imagine you are 17, and you are driving a RM400K car ! ( It might cost even more, since AUDI TT comes with different engine model. Each having different cost. And it is something that i can't confirm from just a 2 seconds pass by. )
You are not earning money, and you are driving 1 luxurious car.....
It really makes me goes .... DUH ! What to drive when he get to work ? AUDI R8 ? LAMBO ? Ohya, he don't even need to work. Just burn some money off his lovely daddy.
But is ok, since life is unfair.
Blessed with such fortune at his age still doesn't mean he is everything.
Not really 100% satisfied with my 'little war machine 小战车', but it is good enough comparing it to ' Bus number 11'. Since I call my 'lil war machine' as my 'dai zai', still love him much.
I admit i am impressed, i do envy. But i don't need an AUDI TT to live my life to the fullest =D
Appreciate what i have, agree ?

( PS : I so gonna own myself a decent car in future ! Muahaha, day-dreaming again >.< )

Regarding to what i write above.
Some of you might feel DUH ! GOSH ! URGHH !
But the truth is, it is nothing cool to be a 'bai ga zai' !
Be who we are, and it is the coolest we could be.
Agree or disagree, that's how i think and what i want to find within a guy/girl.
Work and strive to what you want to be, but don't lose yourself in the process.
It is just worthless when you lost the utmost value while you earn another something, right ?

***

No need to understand. Just need to know that... i miss that time...

***

Randomness

2010-10-04T18:47:00.003+08:00

Hahaha, yeap~ pretty random.
A Naruto Music Video.
I am 20 years old, and nothing gonna stop me from finishing these few series that i really like.
Naruto, Bleach, One Piece and Fairytail.

This 1 was made 2004.
Well, actually i am not featuring Naruto itself. But rather the song.... Well, i like the lyric so much.
I remember i used to sing this out loud with some of my secondary schoolmates. Where ? Top of a hill, hahaha ! Is amazing, trust me.
About the video itself, for those who don't know, it seems easy but actually not.
Is not easy to compile so many raw footage and compose them this way.
An average after effect user will even find this to be hard..... at least to be time-consuming.

Listen to the lyric and match them with the video.
They actually match pretty good. And that's what i like about this.
And yea, the lyric basically stab through me as well.... =(

The fastest man in the world, fast asleep at the wheel
Nobody wants to be alone, so how did I get, here
When I look at you, I see him staring through
Awake and a smile, cuz he's been inside of you
Is he all the things you, tried to change me into?
Is he everything to you?

Does he make you high, make you real?
Does he make you cry? Does he know the way you feel?
Love is all around you, your universe is full
But in my world, there is only you

I can still find the smell
On my clothes and skin
I can still see your face, when youre sleeping next to him
Is he all the things you, tried to change me into?
Tell me does he…

[chorus]

I've had enough of fears, you let them out
Now I wrap myself around you
Like a blanket full of doubt
The darkness grows
The sunlight stings
He's your everything

[chorus]

You make me high! You make me real!
You make me cry! Now you know the way I feel
Love is all around you, your universe is full
But in my world, there is only you

***

Back to randomness.....

Been reading some review of some.... cars.... hahaha.
Yea, a car... something that i don't really have what it takes to own one myself.... yet !
FYI, proton is rebadging Mitsubishi's Lancer GT and going to made them Proton Waja. I would better call it Proton Waja Lancer ... or Proton WaLan !
The thing is, this new Waja would be 100% identical to Lancer GT with just a little bit of modification.
Changing the front bumper and the logo is everything you need to own a 'Mitsubishi Lancer'.
While this might be a good news for those who wanted to own a cheaper version of Mitsubishi Lancer, it hurts for those who are owning a Mitsubishi Lancer.
Imagine this, you own a Lancer, you drive one on the road. And people start claiming you to be driving a Waja and you are a wannabe for modifying your Waja to looks like a Lancer.
Oh duh.... this hurts like hell ! Since Waja and Lancer is totally 2 different things....
And in a few months time, i believe Proton WaLan can be seen almost in every cities.
From what i know, Proton WaLan gonna cost you from 75k-100k, depending on the specs itself.
For being a Proton, its kinda costy. But for being a 'Mitsubishi Lancer', it sounds so reasonable, hahaha.

From the above 2 to ....

This 2.... I believe it wouldn't cost you much...
And most people will just modify that way.
And if i own 1, the truth is ... i am one of them, haha.
In conclusion, it is really pain for those who already owned a Mitsubishi Lancer.
Ohya, the girl in the photo. Is Eva, hahaha. She is famous i would say, for being the Toshiba girl of PC fair.

PS: Proton WaLan really sounds so walan ~!
And for now, talking about the same price range, i favor this 1 more :

Kia Forte with body kits.
FYI, Kia Forte is designed by a designer who is been designing for Audi for the past.
Audi, that sounds like wow... right ? haha

For the 13th of this month, how i wish i woke up with this thing parking in my front yard. With the key beside my bed, muahaha ~!

***

哦.... 回家了....

2010-10-03T21:04:00.000+08:00

回到家了, 能够上网了.
这段日子里, 有过许许多多的内容想要写出来.
可是此时此刻... 却不懂得要如何开始.
或许不该在这里写吧.
只能说... 对空洞的体会又升华了吧.... 但又有谁要把我住进他/她心里的防空洞 ?
有些事情, 不到一种体会是绝对看不透的...
比如说, 麻痹自己... 抽空自己... 我从来就不曾想过能刻意办得到.... 但是看来我错了.
而其中换来的挣扎也难以形容...
我把这一切归类为, 一种体会.
也不多写了.

老爸突然间在房间里装了新冷气....
却忘了我鼻子敏感.... 但没关系, 确实凉快了许多.
只是这真的对我来说是多余....
鼻子敏感, 又怕冷.... 冷气好像不怎么适合我.

还记得上个星期病得七彩....
简直要了我的命.... 发冷, 发烧, 喉痛, 咳嗽, 伤风, 发抖, 头痛..... 不是开玩笑那种.
哀啊.... 有苦自己懂.
想家又没用..... 乱想则更悲....
不过很庆幸有一些朋友在 twitter 看到我说病了, 都有通过电话关心关心.
老实说... 我真的有感动啦.... 谢谢 ! ( 你们自己会知道我在说你们. )

我也好不习惯写部落格了....
毕竟习惯了过 'caveman' 的生活....
或许下次再写多点吧.

***

抉与择

2010-09-16T21:58:00.004+08:00

人活在这世上, 经常要做许多难以抉择的决定.
这是避免不了, 也逃避不了的事实.
在抉择的同时, 每一个选择必定都有它们自己的原因 : 让你无法抉择.
我想, 这也是无法抵赖的.

很多人也一样, 往往就是害怕自己做错选择, 会后悔.
所以一直都做不好选择.
当然这实在太平常了.... 此时此刻读着你也是一样的.
没有人能逃得过这规律.
一个写着 '抉择永远都是困难的' 的规律.

为什么呢 ? 为什么就是那么困难呢 ?
这要看当事人的心理状态. 有些人很爽快, 有些人则很扭捏.
不过我想大致上都逃不开 , 有得必有失, 这一句话.
选择了其一, 就失去了其二.
或许真的有些情况, 做得到两全其美.
但这样的事情哪来那么多呢.
失去这字眼对我们来说, 打击往往很大.
因为你懂得抉择的事情, 你失去的事情, 对于一个人来说, 那根本不算得上是失去什么.
失去了会痛的, 那叫在乎, 而也只有在乎的事情会难以抉择.
我想我没说错吧.

为什么会写这些呢 ?
心血来潮吧.... 想写就写.
或许自己现在就需要来个抉择吧, 所以会有些无谓的感触.
一样的, 对我来说抉择也是很困难的事情.
有多困难, 我想只有我自己知道.
抉择于什么事情呢 ?
我只会透露说....
一件对我来说...
非常在乎的事情.
非常深刻的事情.
非常体会的事情....

抉择, 选择.....
一个我想我再也逃不了的命运....
或许是时候... 这次, 由我来选择了.

如果爽快与扭捏之间, 我属于哪一类型呢 ?
我自己也不是很清楚....
说我懂得彻底, 彻底得能让我狠狠决定.... 却说不上是彻底.
说我失去方向, 失去了向前的一切原因.... 却也说不上透彻.
没关系.... 就是这样才叫做抉择, 而抉择从来就不是说要就能要的事情.
我明白这一点, 不喜欢这样的残酷, 但是我不会回避这两个字眼.

-运律-

***

不是很想回赛城...
但总需要回去....
回去后没有好吃的, 没有网上.... 还要费神去处理许多事情...
不过, 这就是生活.

生活 : 一直尝试击溃你, 只为了让你更加成长 ; 好面对下一次冲击的一个过程.

考试就快来了.... 不过我没压力... 从来就不曾有过.
祝我好运... 最近丢失了许多运... 朋友们就借着点来用吧, 哈哈....

***

我闭上眼... 心里没什么激动, 没什么澎湃...
偶尔下阵细雨, 偶尔来阵寒雾...
能感受到自己的呼吸... 缓缓的... 一呼, 一吸....
算得上平静... 没下大雨就好了.

***

数到三

2010-09-13T15:43:00.004+08:00

钢琴上的键弹不出明天
一双手要怎样
要怎样才能够撑住一片天
明天已经很遥远
一个人要怎样     要怎样伪装自己勇敢向前
我以为你还在     我还等着你回来
一起看海拥抱海的澎湃
数到三还不来     回忆不释怀    我在等待
可是你怎么都不会回来

键弹不出明天
一双手要怎样
要怎样才能够撑住一片天
明天已经很遥远
一个人要怎样     要怎样伪装自己勇敢向前
我以为你还在     想念的雾散不开
一场意外谁把我救出来
数到三还不来     期待已变坏     留下只是寂寞里那种无声黑白
我以你你还在     我还等着你回来
一起看海拥抱海的澎湃
数到三还不来     回忆不释怀     我在等待
可是你永远都不会回来 hoooooooo~~~
我以为你还在 wo~~~ho~~~~woho~~

在不在     你还在不在     不在回来
泪水淋湿了无奈      我还在空无等待
我以为你还在        我还等着你回来
一起看海拥抱海的澎湃        数到三还不来
回忆不释怀       我在等待     可是你永远都不会回来

本地本地.
最支持本地创作了.
好歌 !
没想到这首歌有本事让我情不自禁.
但毕竟是好词好曲吧.
推荐 !

***

背后盘骨四周又痛了....
糟糕...

***

qian qian ? qiam qiam ? kiem kiem ?

2010-09-12T21:19:00.004+08:00

回来啦, 在关丹.
所以能够上网一段时间.
Hmm.... 我现在最想说的是...... qiam qiam ~!
是qian qian 啦, 我的.... 她叫我舅舅就对了, 哈哈.... 这方面我很差一下.
不过她叫我 gor gor 的 ( 是我要求的, 哈哈. )

她呢, 是我看过印象最深刻的小孩中, 两个的其中一个. 另一个是我朋友的侄女.
不过 qiam qiam 当然比较有 touch 到咯, 有来往嘛~ 哈哈.
说到她, 就想起两年前她还不会说话是的样子. 只会 hehehaha 和 byebye, 而我们只用了这两种话语来沟通, 不过就玩到很高兴的.
现在就不一样了, 会说话了. 结果就越来越可爱, 还记得今天中午时她说的那几句话.
当时我正拿着包包上车, 她就问了她妈
qiam qiam : " mi a mi, gor gor 要去哪里? "
qiam qiam mom : "舅舅要和舅公回关丹的家了咯~"
qiam qiam : "qiam qiam 要去, qiam qiam 要去~!"

当时她还是天真无邪地看着我笑, 看了我只有一种感觉 " sweet 到~"
不过在她妈说不可以后, 她也乖乖的说 " 哦~"
然后看着我说 : " byebye gor gor ~"
可爱到 ~!

说到小孩子, 和我逛过街的朋友现在一定在 face palm 自己.
哈哈, 对啦 !稍微可爱点的, 我都会停下来逗他们.
而且是经常那一种.... 我想我是遭我二姐影响吧... 以前常常在红绿灯时和隔车的小孩子耍鬼脸.
这现象嘛... 朋友通常会有几种反应 :

1. 死变态, 小妹妹都不放过 !
2. 小孩子都要电 !
3. 酱喜欢, 自己生一个啦 !
4. Sei yer, 不要靠近我 !
5. 找 ....生一个啦 !

类似的反应..... 是你们太夸张就有... 哈哈 !

***

最近嘛, 交了一系列的功课... 不过还没交完.
这要感谢我们的 Mr.K.... 他真的很 k.... 很 kek (卡) 的 look....

然而嘛, 其实功课再多我的日子还是照过.
最近和朋友突然兴起了篮球..... ( 前一阵子有的是羽毛球, 桌球... 我们玩球好像都很有季节性.... )
篮球嘛... 也是我其中一个遗憾....
所谓的遗憾就是我小时候应该好好珍惜的机会.... 这些包括 :

小学篮球和羽毛球校队中途放弃, 钢琴课程中途放弃, 跳舞不到家..., 节令鼓打了五年却他妈的一个观摩赛都没有.... 等等.

不过, 现在玩起来也不错.
挺开心的, 能让我短时间什么都不去想, 只想着如何控球.... 所以不错 !
所以往后的日子, 我可以借此途径好好处理自己. 希望可以吧.
至于不好的嘛... 伤了盘骨, 或许还不习惯这样跳跃法吧.... 不过现在差不多全愈了.

还有什么嘛....
很奇怪的, 我染发我老爸竟然没投诉 !
很平常的, 老爸问了我很多我不会答的问题.... 我都 hahahahaha ~ 带过.
很开心的, 大家都在讨论大姐和姐夫的席酒要如何摆法.
很 aiyak 的, 二姐辞职了,KPMG 也不见得很好.... 包装美而已 ? 没意见.
很安慰的, 我的二儿子对于赶功课真的很有效 !
很遗憾的, 我的遗憾我不会告诉你们, 哈哈...

***

给自己的.

***

Just to kacao the spider web.

2010-08-24T12:42:00.002+08:00

Ermm.... gonna stay offline for few weeks.
Connection is down .... too bad ...

At my friend's place right now, perhaps i should be writing something....
Errmmm.....
Yeap, i am going to have my second son soon, a new PC.
I thought i would be very excited over it.... but it doesn't seems to be...
But ... i know myself... material is never enough to satisfy me, not me being greedy, but rather i am just not that into it. I prefer satisfaction in term of my soul rather than material.
And perhaps for now, nothing much can really cheer me up to my highest peak.
Since not even 1 of long dreamt '2nd son' could make it.
I know what it takes to really enlighten me, but ... there are reason why dream are called a dream.
I should always remind myself about that, maybe slapping myself once in a while as well.

Ok, next.
Assignmentsssssss ... well, this 1 is sure a tough 1.
I guess the toughest period i ever experience thus far.
Yea yea, another reason to make me goes *face-palm ..... fainted... crawl up .... goes 'nya nya nya' ( my imba mood, my housemates probably know that well ) *

Next..... another issue is...
I couldn't make it back to Kuantan.... my family plan for that since early semester... but.... assignments really done a good job at dragging me down.... *thumbs up ....flip down ....poke up my middle finger... *
They deserved that.... Since even if they never clash up with my plan, they are still a source to my "ever growing negative aura" recently...

Talking about negative aura, actually it doesn't seems to be that bad afterall....
The lower it gets, the higher it bounces back up. Somebody told me that, well.... kinda agree as well.
Whatelse ???? Can't really think of anything right now.... gonna went back down to finish up my part in the assignmentssss...
Ohya, no more spider web, aint it ? =)

***

Suggestion needed.

2010-08-11T01:10:00.007+08:00

Advice and suggestion needed for those with multiple choices. Please do suggest or recommend =)

1st confirmed part : Intel I5 760, currently the most budget-friendly I5 quad core choice/

2nd consider confirmed part : ASUS P7P55D-E . Comes with USB 3.0, SATA 6. With other pretty interesting features.

RAM , Kingston HyperX 1600mhz 4GB DDR3 dual channel kit.

PSU , Cooler Master GX series 550w. Not going for silverstone or higher range due to budget...

GPU : ATI RADEON HD5770. I am actually considering all of the manufacturer's card, from ASUS to even Sapphire. Design matters when comes to this, because actually they all perform quite the same. But XFX is definitely my 1st choice.

Casing : Cooler Master USP 100. But black or red ? Actually i like it black, but all my friends said ' red ownz ! '. Another thing is i want it to be with side window, which is harder to get.

Monitor, optional.... But i will see what i can do about it. Both AOC and Samsung comes with 21.5 inch LED, without HDMI ( I don't use monitor audio afterall. ). Both are at the same price, Samsung have better reputation..... however the design sucks for this EX2220X =.=

****

第二胎儿子 ?

2010-08-07T18:12:00.002+08:00

我都好久没写些什么了.
不知道.... 或许是因为说过不再透露什么吧.
近几天好累... 刚交了一样功课, 然后就 CyberP 吧, 精神没什么特别好.
去跆拳道, 自己好玩也稍微弄伤了脚. 不过没什么特别严重.
这些琐碎的事情, 我看也没什么看头....
但是我就只有这些琐碎的东西写.... 哈哈...
对了, 今天是文晟大佬的生日. 生日快乐 !
等下就下去帮他庆祝了, 哈哈.

最近除了一些 "密封" 的困惑之外, 还有一个事情需要想想.
新的 '儿子' ... 应该吗? 就是说电脑.
如果说要换... 我想全换, 银幕也换.
因为觉得 23.6 寸比较方便. 看朋友的23.6寸, 做 flash, AE 等等, layer bar scroll 都不用 scroll... 自己则 scroll 到乱.
但是.... i5 core, performance ram, 好点的 psu, graphic card.... 这些等等.... 都不便宜...
不过也都是我一向来想要的....
其实钱倒不是什么大问题... 老爸老早就说了没问题, 再加上自己有点储蓄.... 绝对应付得来...
只是在想... 我不想加重老爸的负担.... 说是说没问题啦... 但毕竟不是小数目...
还有就是在想, 电脑是我该投资的吗 ? 但其实是需要.... 毕竟对我这种 last minute work student 来说, 快点, 安全点 ! 哈哈.... @@
给点意见吧.

***

当一个人有了牵有了挂,
会发现有些感受是会呼吸的, 想停也停不了.
而其中的滋味, 也只有自己最明了.

你们觉得呢 ?

***

8 月 1 号

2010-08-01T03:22:00.001+08:00

今天是 8 月 1 号.
没什么... 就 8 月 1 号....

***

看不透我的想法就抓一抓头发
你喜欢用装傻停止我脑袋复杂
你要我乖乖待在家剪掉无谓分叉
就顺著你步伐让爱情都简单化
我其实不爱吵架
只是想你多了解一下
我想我是个傻瓜
就是爱你我不能自拔
我们都需要爱但是面对爱我们像小孩
谁能承认自己厉害
还不是一样换来伤害
我们都需要爱有时太寂寞对身体有害
所以背负感情的债
再独自品尝个中的精彩与无奈

***

Just a song

2010-07-30T16:26:00.001+08:00

Just a song that keep echoing in my mind.
Perhaps, due to the drama.

***

我也希望有那么一天

2010-07-24T17:09:00.000+08:00

没什么, 最近有在看 '下一站幸福' . ( 我知道很 outdate 一下了, 不用提醒我. )
这是其中一首插曲, 觉得有味道, 就放上来啦.
就淡淡的忧伤, 没有 '我爱她, 轰轰烈烈最疯狂 !' 的那一种激动.
但有时侯, 淡淡就刚刚好了.
不要想太多, 我只是纯粹贴些歌曲.

***

假期开始了.
功课.... 一想到就想要抓狂...

很好笑的, 有朋友投诉说我之前的 update 好过不用 update.
哈哈, 我想是习惯了倾听我心里的内容, 一下子不习惯吧.
但是真的很抱歉, 封了就是封了, 我不会再随便写些什么了.
是真的关心我的, 能够问我啊. 还不是一样 ?
但是这不是无期限的封闭啦...
等吧, 我也希望有天我能够笑着为'命运的旋律' 解封.
哈哈.

***

Yea yea... update...

2010-07-20T23:40:00.000+08:00

" Wui !!! naper takdek update u punya blog ?!?!? dulu tiap tiap hari update, mana pergi sekarang ? "
A respond from my friend.....

Erm.... Actually nothing is so interesting about my life.... i live just an ordinary life.
So... update update....
I will just talk about what's with me and my surrounding recently.

Mid-term break coming soon.... but i not sure whether i should go back Kuantan or not.....
My major's assignment is not going to let me enjoy the holiday through-out !
Teong is going to throw a party this weekend, probably at 1 of the club, and he invited me.
But clubbing.... i am not that into it...
1st, i don't smoke with them.
2nd, i don't enjoy hooking up with random pretty girls... they are just pretty girls for me... that's all....
3rd, i know they just gonna complain why am i so diam.... every time.... ( is not like they don't know my personality ... =x )
However, i do enjoy the music and hanging out with friends. The thing is, i can enjoy that everywhere anywhere.
So... still neutral. Never mind that, as long as my friend can enjoy it.

Whatelse with MMU ....
MMU MMU.... ohya.... Gamma year is so different from before....
I hate Monday, tutorial tutorial ..... whole day class whole day class... *yawn yawn*
I love the previous Thursday ( class change to Friday ), Taekwondo Taekwondo ! That is a class which can make up my week, i just gonna say i love it.
Although every week i end up with bruises here and there... but i would say worthwhile.

Hmmm.... love story ? Sorry, censorship =)
But i do have one !
Gratz to 1 of my friend, i sincerely wishing you a good journey ahead with my 'bro'.
Really glad to see that happen ! =D

Hmmm... what else ?
Friends ? Nope, nothing special.
Family ? Love them always, that's all.
Personal thought ? Censorship #2.
So i guess that's all for this time.
I believe, this consider as an update ? hahaha ~

***

空气再稀薄, 也要深呼吸.

2010-07-16T12:13:00.001+08:00

风雪再无情...
云雨再无测...
空气再稀薄, 也要深呼吸.

***

最近唱得很有味道的一首歌曲.

***

无药可救

2010-07-09T21:57:00.007+08:00

I was looking at 1 of my secondary schoolmate profile and blog.
And this is what i found...
It really makes me goes WTF !
For me, she doesn't even look average ....
And she is expecting this and that... just who she think she are ?
F-king go and earn some money, it is not easy at all.
And she spent RM2K in a month ?!
While she is only doing the spending, not the earning ?!?!?
That's like 1 month rental fee for my unit, which accommodate 9 person !
And i don't even remember that she came from a wealthy family..... spoilt !
Don't take money from a BF to be granted =.=
We are not born to feed your materialistic desire !
And notice what she wrote about her mom ?
Hopeless girl, that's her mom and she actually thinks that way ....
It really pissed me off to see this ....
Her life are .... 无药可救.

***

Stop reminding that i gonna work in another 2 years time ><
Haha !

***

封

2010-07-02T22:14:00.000+08:00

我很庆幸我很明白我要的是什么....
我不会后悔的, 我知道.

也非常明白我应该做些什么.
很多事情都是要以相同频率进行的.
前进, 一起前进.
后退, 一起后退.
暂停, 一起暂停.
不然就会出现不协调的情况.

不会选择阻止, 只会选择配合.
这段期间...
一倍的压力, 我就给予一倍的承受.
双被的压力, 我就给予双倍的承受.
少少都承担不起, 还算什么啊 ?

镜子是有分反射性和透明化的.
反射... 我变不了...
不过, 让我尝试透明化吧...
透明得发射一切... 只有自己知道自己反射了什么.

这会是我短期内的最后一个发布.
我要封起命运的旋律...

*封*

***

让我学习吧. ; =)

2010-06-27T19:01:00.005+08:00

我
会很努力.
会加把劲
会勇敢点.
会去学习

你
只需要一个微笑.
只需要一个点头.
只需要一句 Enn.... 或者 yor!

错了, 告诉我.
对了, 点点头.
乱了, 说出口.

我实在不会表达.
让我学习吧.

但有时候真的会很泄气...

***

不应该虚弱...

自己听了的, 要信.
自己说了的, 要做.

应该了解的, 理解.
应该体谅的, 原谅.

还不知道的, 等待.
还不实现的, 期待.

不太明白的, 乐观.
已经明白的, 牢记.

自己所写的, 深信 =)

( 29th June )

***

跆拳道 ; 我应该笑吗 ?

2010-06-24T21:05:00.003+08:00

这学期选择了跆拳道为课外活动.
上了两堂实践课. 都觉得不错.
第一个星期, 超累的. 累得甚至有点晕晕得... 结果就躺下休息.... 自己觉得简直太羞了....
第二个星期, 也累. 不过比之前好多了. 至少状态一直保持着.
不知是教程松点了, 还是自己状态好点了.... 也不管了. 最主要我知道, 好点了.

如果你问我说为什么跆拳道 ?
我会回答说, 我要挑战自己的右脚. 我要告诉自己我是可以完全康复的, 我是可以踢, 可以跑的.
而我想我在进步着.
毕竟脚的伸缩都比较好了, 感觉也比较实在了.
其实我知道自己私底下也能自己锻炼... 但我想我需要更好的推动力.
于是选择了跆拳道 ! 就算我知道会比较辛苦, 也可能不会有什么大收获, 但只要我觉得值得. ( 我就是这样的一个人.... 很多事情都是这样的... 认识我的就会知道. )

在此贴上一个短片, 集合了两个我喜欢的元素, bboy and taekwondo.

TIP and K-tigers from South Korea.

***

有些事情... 我不知道要如何说.
我的疑问还是那么多... 我的摇摆不曾减...
虽然最近其实我已经很开心....
但每每笑着的时候, 就会有种念头.... 我应该笑吗 ? 可能根本就不代表什么...

人常说天平的爱情, 是要稳扎稳打的.
因为天平属于将心比心型.
换句话来说就是安全感.
我非常赞同.... 自己也是一个典型的天平座.

我好想她....
很痛很痛...

***

我不是双子

2010-06-20T23:32:00.000+08:00

不知道几时开始, 我非常注意这星座.
但我不是双子.

-----

双子座

有很多的朋友，可是'看起来朋友很多，
可是知心的没有几个'这句话很深刻的形容了双子。
双子很能说话，他跟别人可以天南地北的聊，
可以聊得很八卦，也会聊一些很严肃的话题。
双子可以跟你聊很多东西，可是注意了，
他都只是跟你聊一些不关自己的事。
随便他跟你说些什么，可是跟自己有关的都只是些皮毛而已。
比如，今天又有某个明星怎样怎样了；隔壁班有多少美女帅哥的。
关于自己的事，他几乎是不说的，
就算是说，也是说一些关于自己无关痛痒的事。
当你想更进一步的了解双子，他会很自然的把话题给扯开。

对于自信的双子来说，他又同时很没有安全感，这是双子特有的矛盾。
他喜欢把自己重重包围住，不让自己暴露。
对于双子来说，如果在一个还不了解的人面前把自己暴露了，
就等于让别人抓住了自己的把柄。这样就失去了一定的优势。

当双子感到独孤悲伤时，只会一个人躲在房间里哭，或者一个人郁闷着。
双子也很怕被伤害，很多时候宁愿自己承受一切，
也不愿别人抓住自己的把柄，所以久而久之也就养成了习惯。
双子基本上也是个很痛苦的人。表面上总是很有活力，很快乐的样子，
可是没人的时候他又总是很忧伤。

双子总会被一种莫名的悲伤笼罩。但他不会让别人发现的，
他怕被伤害，也怕被别人抛弃，只能自己硬挺着一切。
所以双子很神经质，精神脆弱，容易人格分裂，
因为承受了太多的东西. 一般来说双子的孩子都很早熟。
双子对很多的东西都在乎得要命，可是表面上就是看起来什么都不在乎。

双子并不是故意要掩饰自己，上面说了，这只是一种习惯了，
可是在外人看来他就成了虚伪的人。
双子是被公认的最花心、最冷酷无情的星座。
其实对于双子的花心，真的不想再说些什么了。
解释得太多，累了，也没耐心了，可是说起双子，就不得不提感情。
双子这一生，似乎必须被感情牵伴，跟爱情纠缠一世。
很多人说双子并不花心，只是博爱，所以才会有那么好的人缘。

有这样的一句话：双子最大的悲哀在于有两个人的思想，却只有一个人的身体，
双子有爱自己所爱的人的权利，也有保护彼此所爱的人的义务，
双子只剩下一个时，爱也就只剩下义务了。
我想用如来若去说的一句话给双子的花心做个总结：花心的极端就是痴心的可怕。
该懂的人应该会懂的。至于冷酷无情真的不知道该从何说起。

其实双子是最平和的星座，如果可以不发生冲突，都会尽量避免。
双子也很少跟别人吵架，他讨厌吵架，如果是因为一些生活琐碎小事吵架，
那么双子就在吵完的那一刻就把这件事给忘了；要双子真的跟你翻脸，
除非是你的所作所为或所说的话实在让双子不能忍受，这时他会很鄙视得看你一眼，
然后头也不回地走掉，甚至会不给你留面子地离开。这时你一辈子也别想再和他和好了，
就算有的双子碍于面子和你再成为朋友，但是他们已经对你鄙视到了极点，
只不过维持着这一层不得不维持的'朋友'关系。

其实，很大一部分双子，对待感情是非常专一的，之所以给人留下花心的美名，
是因为很少有人能够让略带童心的双子动真感情，不是双子铁石心肠，
而是双子个性里面天生有一些忧郁，一些潜在的不自信，只是双子隐藏的深入。

可是一旦让双子动了真感情，那么恭喜你了，双子的天真，率直，外加表达能力丰富，
一定能让你获得很多快乐。每个双子都有一个故事隐藏在心里，多数是不堪回首的往事，
双子是个念旧或者说是喜欢沉浸在回忆中的星座。
他（她）的这个故事通常都是因情所困，动了感情而被伤害了的双子是脆弱的，也是坚强的，
他（她）可以很快的振作起来，可以当什么事都没有发生，这些都是双子演给世人看的罢了，
等到夜深人静的时候，双子内心的伤痛随着血液渗透到全身，
他（她）可以一整夜的去回忆之前的点点滴滴，
可以一整夜的沉浸在痛苦之中，可以一整夜坐在那里发呆，
但是，一旦天亮了，要出去见人了，
双子马上就从痛苦中抽身而走，你看到的肯定是一个神采奕奕的双子，

这就是双子，拥有双重性格的双子，
一个在世人面前乐天，快乐，在孤独夜晚独自伤悲的双子。
双子的爱是最永恒的，可以付出一切，
有人说我们花心，那时我们没有真正的爱，
当双子爱上一个人的时候是痛苦的，因为我们太敏感。
假如双子爱上了一个不爱自己的人，那莫我相信他永远都不会再爱了，
当爱给过了一个人，他再也没有能力再付出了，
其实太多的人都不懂我们，其实连我们自己都不懂自己，
我们很会伪装，很会说谎，但我们最细腻，对感情最敏感，
双子的爱与悲伤，谁又真的了解！

-------

我不知道这些写得有多准.
但是我看了许多许多, 我想都写得有根据吧.
其实当然单凭这些, 不代表什么.
只能说, 虽然我不是双子, 对双子的了解不逊于自己对天平的了解.
但既然说明了是猜不透的星座... 恐怕所有自己单方面的想法, 都还是算了吧....

双子只是一个我很想了解的星座.
双字只是一个我很想体谅的星座.
有那么一个双子, 我重视.
有那么一个双子, 我关怀.
有那么一个双子, 我爱着....

***

有心, 无意

2010-06-17T12:32:00.008+08:00

非常努力堵起的围墙,
只在简简单单的几次侵袭下, 瓦解了.
试图冷藏的情绪,
只需几番温热就熔化了.

我谁也不怪, 只怪我自己.
不完美的是我, 我知道.

有心的, 全都能给了你.
无意的, 请让我知道, 别拨动我心跳, 因为我也会全给了你....

離開我　再沒有決裂的時候
就讓靈魂徹底的墮落　喔～　喔～

＊放逐過　還逃不出你的左右
怪只怪我把愛當寄託
一時迷惑　一路犯錯

＃給我死心的理由　誓言融雪時別沉默
　我的美麗只剩哀愁
　怕看見溫柔眼眸　怕斷了唯一的出口
　就無處可躲　你時而熱情
　時而冷漠的雙手　多叫人心痛＃＊

***

Quoted from Wei Kang :" 女生就像动画片里的怪物, 越多跟随者, 功力越强. ; 不同的是, 女生是越多追求者, 越觉得自己更有魅力好吸引更多追求者."

很 =.=" 的比喻..... 不过到现在我都还记得.

你可知道当一个人在希望得到一个人的关怀理解时, 却吝啬于回报相等的关心和体谅时... 其中是有伤害性质的吗 ?

***

很羞啊 !!!! haiz !

***

纯粹更新

2010-06-11T16:17:00.003+08:00

近期应该不会有什么很长的更新吧.

但毕竟都一个星期了, 怎样都得写写东西的.
刚开学了, 会比之前来得更辛苦吧.
但我猜没问题的. 逆来顺受, 不是那么容易弄垮我的.
新家其实是有些问题, 但大致上还好.
最主要是睡得好, 这点就不错了.
最近时常头痛, 不知道为什么....

还有什么嘛.... 我想也没什么了.
毕竟一些事情我绝对不会贴上来.
比如说我的生活点滴什么的, 这点该很明显吧.
有看过我贴图上来吗 ? 哈哈, 没有对不对.
( 我也很懒惰 )

或许是我再也跟不上那脚步了...

***

还是觉得有点不敢相信.
而我应该相信自己的知觉, 还是拿往事来警惕自己... 我也不知道...
我非常明白可能又是我想太多了... 但是事情又好象真的乐观化了.
然而, 我再也不敢随便相信自己的知觉了.
经验告诉我, 我不曾对过.
如果不直接告诉我 ..... 我会选择不相信自己的知觉.

***

命运的旋律

makin lama makin intense

设计 ? 有学啦, 乱扯是绝对行的 !

想下下就好啦

写来干嘛

逊呆了

"那些年, 我们一起追的女孩" x "那些年, 我追过的女孩"

ermmm....

21 岁啦

( )

Wish me a safe trip.

小事一记

Wish List !

偶尔

48/22, jalan cerong langjut

當冬夜漸暖

wa cha ~

空乏却沉重.

淡定啊

台前台后.

相声词.

穷到.....

大动作, 小细节

个人问题

Impturm.

云雨无测.

是真是假也没关系了

空白格

无题

还是一样啊...

敷衍更新

很重...

刺身.

快疯了

茫然

Clicks needed

Ace

Just my 2 cents.

我能體諒

又向邻居'借用'了.

O.O

Shadow of my life.

Pure.... posting for fun ?

新年... 我体会了什么.

情人节快乐

一步, 两步, 还差九十八步.

考试....

我懂, 不用担心.

namo namo

一个普通人

Saa yukou !

Luffy and Ace

漫步向前走去....

空乏狂想症

爱上了 '一半'

MMU没有 ADDMATH !

=|

phew...

等收尸 !

2010

Sidewinder

流沙

xmas again ?

也 ok

BaliaZai

身与心

Yossh ! Tadayima !

主人, 猫咪 和鱼儿.

淡 * 韵味

保持就好.

给自己.

Crap... don't read this. If u read,dun complain =.=

Kelian dao ~

asasda

Hate it or love it.

...

Eh eh eh eh eh ~

How's Malaysian's bboy scene ?

BAI GA ZAI ?

Randomness

主人, 猫咪和鱼儿.

我闭上眼... 心里没什么激动, 没什么澎湃...
偶尔下阵细雨, 偶尔来阵寒雾...
能感受到自己的呼吸... 缓缓的... 一呼, 一吸....
算得上平静... 没下大雨就好了.

***

封