命运的旋律

Is really been some time since I last updated my blog. Ok, here I am.... with nothing particular in my mind..... Seriously my life is so 'flat' and peace... ohya and dry too, even though it always rain ... Btw, I hate it for stopping me from a basketball session, and I can't do my laundry. Well, Soon, really soon .... my 'flat' kind of life gonna 'curve down' ..... FYP ~~~~>.<~~~~~ And gonna get even dry, I believe.... =.=" Pretty useless post right ? Yea, I know. ***

21 岁啦. 谢谢祝福我的所有朋友, 迟的, 准时的都谢. 当然最准时的更加谢谢了 =] 生日怎么过啊 ? 从来我的生日都是很简单的, 所以也没什么特别的写给大家看了. 感想嘛.... 头头12个小时, 有少少遗憾... 原因嘛, 因为以为自己原来遭忘得那么彻底了. 但其实.... 也不紧要了, 少少遗憾真的是少少... 所以也没什么感受. 后来也发现其实不然... 其实也不是我介意吧, 只是一开始... 感叹曾经的自己那样而已. 这段嘛, 我相信会有人读个明白. 那好吧, 就当做是.... 给个属于自己的交代吧, 现在的我对这事就是这看法. 过去两年的生日, 记忆中我都没快乐没开心. 今年的生日, 我没有特别开心, 但我有快乐. 平平淡淡的一天, 简简单单的快乐.... 也没什么好奢求了. 若问我再来一次, 我会再走上过去两年里的路程吗 ? 其实我没有很明确的答案. 我只知道, 我现在站起来了.... 若再跌多一次, 我会再爬一次... 再摔一次, 再爬一次... 如果我爬得起, 为什么跌不起呢 ? 然而问我... 再来一次, 这次不跌了呢 ? 我也没有很明确的答案. 我只知道, 我不是戏剧组里的演员, NG ? 它并不存在. 关于这件事, 听听 - 田馥甄【還是要幸福】 没那么的悲情. 不过歌词, 送给某某, 实在也说得上恰当. 好吧, 好像写得有点 down 了. Hmmm.... 说说别的吧. FYP ..... 我靠, 更 DOWNNNNNNNN ...... 算了吧, 毕竟现在我身在赛城, HEBE 的歌声陪着我. 还写得出很 HIGH 的感觉.... 我也应该是铁石心肠吧. 赛城在软化情绪这方面的功力, 绝对给力 .... ***

我有出去走, 去逛街, 甚至花钱. 但是我还是很空虚. ***

Going back to kuantan tomorrow. hhmmm.... I always get somehow down when comes to this. Well, i love my family, my home is 10 times better than d12a too. But seriously.... Kuantan only makes me to feel more empty all the time..... basically 0 friends back there.... doesn't even know my neighbours... Since I am driving back this time. Hope I can find sometime and goes down to KT for a few days ? Well, just looking back at the place where i grew up. Hopefully with someone's accompany as a plus. There are some feelings in here.... but nope, not gonna write these this time. Just not yet. Wish me a safe trip. ***

在 intern 期间, 公司给我印了叠名片. 没给过什么人, 给的都是些亲戚朋友的. 今天, 我派出了我第一张名片. 给了个 60 出头的 aunty 婆婆. 当然重点不是在于这名片, 重点是在于因为这婆婆, 我有了什么样的想法和感想. 事情发生在蒲种的一间饭店里 - 点了碟鸡饭, 吃着吃着.... 婆婆 : "年轻人, 能给我个半分钟听听我说些事情吗 ?" 念在我也没什么赶时间, 我也没必要那么快就决定把她驱走. ( 第一印象当然就是一些混账又要来推销博同情了.) 她也开始了她的故事, 给我看了些名片, mykad 等等的. 大概来说, 她说她是在帮位 20 出头的年轻人筹款. 这年轻人丧失了行走的本事.... 不用我细说, 我想很多人都知道这情况是怎么个样子了. 故事说完后, 她要我替她买下一包价值 rm10 的原子笔. 我也买下了, 出于大半的自愿, 小半的打发. 怎么会有大半小半呢 ? 就先说说小半吧. 小半是在于他说的故事, 有些小破绽. 比如说, 身为院长女儿的她为什么对医药那么陌生等等. 大半的愿意又怎么说呢 ? 这婆婆, 自称 65 岁, 在我眼里看来也至少 50. 一个婆婆这把年纪, 背着一大包沉重的原子笔, 站在那和我所了至少五分钟, 说的时候也带有少少激情. 我能不动容吗 ? 当然我不否认说这可以是她对这的拿捏已经非常好, 出来推销自然这方面不会差. 但是我再想起了多少的原因, 我都自己一一推反了. 60 几岁了.... 我妈也快 60 了... 如果换做是我妈, 这样在街上四处推销原子笔什么的, 我又什么滋味呢 ? 而如果其实她说的都是实话, 难道就 rm10 也会要我命吗 ? 加上六枝原子笔 rm10 也不过分. 而婆婆在...

Hmmm.... new interface for blogger, much cleaner, good. But image managing in a post still sucks big time. Ok, since it is September now and October is coming real soon.... So yeap, i think writing this kinda make sense. Hahahaha ! My wishlist for my upcoming birthday ! Is actually my first time writing such kind of post, and i know it sounds so SYOK SENDIRI. Anyway, im not expecting any of the items or stuff i gonna write below. Just take it as a random post. THE SERIOUSLY IMPOSSIBLE : Lexus is250, bmw 3 series.... etc. LOL ! A more practical one would be this though, Kia Forte with Body kit, I still think it is a good bang for its value for cars under RM100K. THE STILL NOT POSSIBLE : A decent keyboard ( instrument ), well I can't really play it, but I wanna learn it. Samsung Galaxy S2, the android beast ! ( Seriously, if u ask me why not iphone5 or 4.... I can just say i'm not into I-thingy. ) Samsung Galaxy Tab 7.7 ( Same here, I still prefer and...

好像突然间遭什么拖了后褪一下.... down 了点. 算了吧, 也挺久没这样了. 偶尔沉淀也算好事, 还有.... 对, 是的, 你说对了. ***