Hate it or love it.
Is over... i mean my birthday.
Yea... just like how i expect it to be. But never reaching what i hope to be.... kinda stabs..
However it is ok, since i expected this.
1st of all, thanks for all the wishes ! Hundreds of them, and i really appreciate those who really meant what they said. Knowing most of them are actually just random 'Hey, maybe i should wish him since it is his bday, and fb said it !'
For those who contact me through phone, i appreciate them even more. This prove u really remember.
It is really not much of them, but thanks !
I favor hearts more than quantity.
For 1 day, i tell myself i must smile. I did my best, and really thanks to my ChunJun sis, for coming back to Kuantan just for this particular day. With loves, thanks !
For whole of my life, there aren't much birthday that i really enjoy with.
Perhaps, there are 1, thanks for someone who made it possible back then.
I am not being extreme, just that it is truth.
My family just wont throw up a party for me, when i was small. And being a kid, i envy my friends so so much. However those are history, it don't mean a thing for me now.
When i slightly grow up, on secondary, they are friends who would celebrate for me. But 13th October is always the end year exam period, so i can't really enjoy it.
Talking about MMU, every 13th of October is semester break. And every semester break, i will be at this place, Kuantan. A place where i have no single friends, since i move here after my secondary and i come straight to MMU after that. Fated perhaps ? Who knows, but it don't really matters. Maybe someday, somehow, all this will change.
Dull ? Down ? Negative ? Think and judge however u like. I am used to being claimed as EMO after all.
No matter how u said it, i am just being truthful to my life, to my thoughts, to my soul.
I might be tired of being down myself, but i hate it even more having to fake myself - so that i look real cheerful.
I am not asking everyone to understand my position, since i can't do the same for every of my friends as well.
But i really appreciate those who just stand by me all these time. For those who really know me, you will know that sometimes i just prefer someone to be by my side, speaking nothing.
Sometimes i just don't feel like talking, sometimes i just find that a silent accompany is real comfortable.
A session of swing at playground, a session of beach breeze, a session of hill-top sitting, a session of lying on grasses... sometimes all these is what i prefer.
Perhaps none of my cyberjaya's friend knew this, i like all these since i was a kid.
However.... for some reason, i am trying to have this changed, i am trying to be a lil bit more talkative, i am trying to speak all out, i am trying to try ...
But i know... i am disappointing...
And for majority, this is what they claimed as EMO.
Maybe it is, if yes, then just let me be an EMO.
I prefer to be called an EMO rather than i calling myself a faker.
However, despite all these ' EMO'. I personally think i never goes beyond the line, i treat my friends as friend, i treat my family as family, emotion just won't affect what it shudn't be affecting... at least i try my best to not let it.
Ok, enough of this EMO topic. I am just trying to make things clear. Get it or not, i can't control you.
You get my words, to remember or to recycle, is all on you.
Lastly, again... thanks for all the blessing, all the words !
With loves, i wish you guys and girls all da best too ! This goes to my family members too.
Being 20 now, i am proud of being one. Haha... used to remember how i wanted to grow up when i was small.
Thinking of wanted to lead my own life, my own family, being a proper guy, a proper family member.
Yea... no 1 actually dream of all these when they are small, especially boys.
Maybe i am real weird, maybe i am all messed up, maybe i am a freak...
However u call it ... this is LIN YI YUN 林宜运.
Hate it or love it, choose yourself =)
***
Having no expectation, but it still turns out to be disappointing.
Backfires by my own hope ? Perhaps...to expect and to hope are 2 very different things.
**
Yea... just like how i expect it to be. But never reaching what i hope to be.... kinda stabs..
However it is ok, since i expected this.
1st of all, thanks for all the wishes ! Hundreds of them, and i really appreciate those who really meant what they said. Knowing most of them are actually just random 'Hey, maybe i should wish him since it is his bday, and fb said it !'
For those who contact me through phone, i appreciate them even more. This prove u really remember.
It is really not much of them, but thanks !
I favor hearts more than quantity.
For 1 day, i tell myself i must smile. I did my best, and really thanks to my ChunJun sis, for coming back to Kuantan just for this particular day. With loves, thanks !
For whole of my life, there aren't much birthday that i really enjoy with.
Perhaps, there are 1, thanks for someone who made it possible back then.
I am not being extreme, just that it is truth.
My family just wont throw up a party for me, when i was small. And being a kid, i envy my friends so so much. However those are history, it don't mean a thing for me now.
When i slightly grow up, on secondary, they are friends who would celebrate for me. But 13th October is always the end year exam period, so i can't really enjoy it.
Talking about MMU, every 13th of October is semester break. And every semester break, i will be at this place, Kuantan. A place where i have no single friends, since i move here after my secondary and i come straight to MMU after that. Fated perhaps ? Who knows, but it don't really matters. Maybe someday, somehow, all this will change.
Dull ? Down ? Negative ? Think and judge however u like. I am used to being claimed as EMO after all.
No matter how u said it, i am just being truthful to my life, to my thoughts, to my soul.
I might be tired of being down myself, but i hate it even more having to fake myself - so that i look real cheerful.
I am not asking everyone to understand my position, since i can't do the same for every of my friends as well.
But i really appreciate those who just stand by me all these time. For those who really know me, you will know that sometimes i just prefer someone to be by my side, speaking nothing.
Sometimes i just don't feel like talking, sometimes i just find that a silent accompany is real comfortable.
A session of swing at playground, a session of beach breeze, a session of hill-top sitting, a session of lying on grasses... sometimes all these is what i prefer.
Perhaps none of my cyberjaya's friend knew this, i like all these since i was a kid.
However.... for some reason, i am trying to have this changed, i am trying to be a lil bit more talkative, i am trying to speak all out, i am trying to try ...
But i know... i am disappointing...
And for majority, this is what they claimed as EMO.
Maybe it is, if yes, then just let me be an EMO.
I prefer to be called an EMO rather than i calling myself a faker.
However, despite all these ' EMO'. I personally think i never goes beyond the line, i treat my friends as friend, i treat my family as family, emotion just won't affect what it shudn't be affecting... at least i try my best to not let it.
Ok, enough of this EMO topic. I am just trying to make things clear. Get it or not, i can't control you.
You get my words, to remember or to recycle, is all on you.
Lastly, again... thanks for all the blessing, all the words !
With loves, i wish you guys and girls all da best too ! This goes to my family members too.
Being 20 now, i am proud of being one. Haha... used to remember how i wanted to grow up when i was small.
Thinking of wanted to lead my own life, my own family, being a proper guy, a proper family member.
Yea... no 1 actually dream of all these when they are small, especially boys.
Maybe i am real weird, maybe i am all messed up, maybe i am a freak...
However u call it ... this is LIN YI YUN 林宜运.
Hate it or love it, choose yourself =)
***
Having no expectation, but it still turns out to be disappointing.
Backfires by my own hope ? Perhaps...to expect and to hope are 2 very different things.
**
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