流沙
圣诞节快乐 !
但其实并没有很喜欢这些节日.
更是最讨厌自己的生日, 哈哈 !
认了吧.
自以为自己可以很冷酷, 却还是在卸下来后, 选择微笑.
自以为自己可以很中立, 却还是在阵摇摆后, 左晃右摆.
可笑自己与人说 '我好多了啦 !'
虽然话是实话, 但此时此刻自己却在质疑自己... '是真的吗 ?'
我真的觉得自己办得到... 但看来我自己对自己的猜测似乎也错了.
流沙般, 我再一次捉不定自己.
流沙般, 我再一次洒下了自己.
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Luffy and Ace
My prayer has been answered... recovered.. thanks... Guess i can put a hold on my worry. And start to look back into myself again. The previous post mentioned that i might mood swing soon. Well, something else caught my main attention and i get worried. Temporary neglecting my own feeling. For now, i have a bad feeling that they are resurfacing though.... I really wish i am out there somewhere ... on a field, beach or somewhere... I need some fresh air.... sigh... Luffy and Ace. Luffy has his nakama, and his aniki - Ace. My brother... duh... we don't share emotional matters... Not really to my friends too... Sometimes i would feel so weaken... without proper reason... Guess i'm pretty worn out after all... Wish to hold on someone and i could cry out loud... Yeah yeah, cry baby , emo freak .... how u named it, i will just accept it. Guess i'm just not the kind who hold feelings back and act tough - since i ain't that tough anymore after all these time...
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